tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34686829209798766962024-02-07T16:19:35.039-05:00theshadow's Alternative Second Life FashionsA blog about alternative fashions within second life, but not just everyday fashions... I'll cover Gothic-chic, Silks, Leather, PVC, Demonic, and just about any other type of fashion you can name! Want to find those darling demon wings that girl at the club had on? Or that drool worthy Gothic dress...? Then I want to help!theshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.comBlogger48125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3468682920979876696.post-29300274455962991562008-03-13T09:54:00.004-04:002008-03-13T12:56:40.923-04:00Skin Shopping Part 2Well the other day I did part 1 covering Tuli, Pixel Deep, Panjen, Gala, and EMA skins. Now it's time for the other batch of skins I bought covering Skin Within's skins. Why just Skin Within this time? Because I ended up with several different flavors of their skins... The seem to specialize in ethnic skins, which frankly I love... Feel like being an egyptian princess today? They have the skin... Or maybe a African Goddess for some RP? They have that to. I bought 3 skins: Saba (Egyptian if I remember correctly), Ashaki (African/Nubian), & Ashawi (Native American). Though I bought a pack of makeups for the Ashawi skin.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3237/2322704494_d8258f03c4_b.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px;" src="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3237/2322704494_d8258f03c4_b.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>First up is the Saba skin in Rhapsody Glitter coloring. The coloring is very nicely done here with a skin tone I like, not to dark and yet not to light... It's also not 'tan' which seems to mean 'orange' to allot of skin designers and I generally hate 'tan' skins. The makeup here is fairly simple with just a a red eyeshadow, some minor blush for the cheeks, and some simple red lipstick. The level of detail in the body of the skin is excellent as well, without the issues I have with the Ashawi skin range.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3225/2321889265_546764f6f1_b.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px;" src="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3225/2321889265_546764f6f1_b.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>Next up is Ashaki in Bordeaux Smokey coloring. This skin is gorgeous easily the best 'black' skin I've ever seen in SL. While I'm not 'black' myself, I dated a black woman that was pre-med during college for awhile and I can say quite well that this is the best coloring for a modern woman of African descent I've yet come across. The level of detail is amazing with the color even varying over the body as it does in RL. The only reason I don't own more options of this skin is the fact that I wear red or burnt red hair and most of the color options in makeup didn't match my preferred hair colors. The makeup I did chose is mostly eyeshadow ranging from red to gold with a slight 'cat eye' effect added and red lipstick.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2232/2322706052_4abe213fba_b.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px;" src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2232/2322706052_4abe213fba_b.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>I bought three of the Ashawi skins mostly for the specific eye makeups and seeing as it's the same price for the set as for three, I bought the set. I'll show only the three I prefer though. First though let me say I like the coloring on them all and the detail is just lovely for the most part... Except... They seem ta think ya are so skinny your ribs poke out under your breasts... So rather than looking fit, you look starved... ;_; Who wants to look starved...? I don't, but I liked the skins enough to buy them anyways... That and I'm hoping the designer may correct this and issue a second version to those who have bought it which is not so starved looking... Now on to makeup specific things...<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2240/2321890813_801366dc66_b.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px;" src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2240/2321890813_801366dc66_b.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>The first of the makeups is Drama. Drama has blue to purple eyeshadow with deep purple lipstick. It goes fairly well with my violet eyes, though I think it minimizes their impact...<br /><br />Next we have Elysian style makeup. Elysian has a gold and red type of eye-makeup in a a type of flame trail pattern that I just love. Added to that is some nice red lipstick. This is the version I would probably wear.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3214/2321891607_4d08296031_b.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px;" src="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3214/2321891607_4d08296031_b.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>The last makeup is Cirque, which is another pruple-ish makeup. It has fun purple and red eyeshadow with a silvery violet lipstick color. It's not what I'd usually wear, but it's so odd to see makeup that highlights my eyes, I have to pick up those ones I see...<br /><br />And that is it for my skins I bought, there were some other interesting demos I set aside and I may get around to adding those to a post as well... We shall see, as this Saturday marks the beginning of a week and a half long vacation... ^_^theshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3468682920979876696.post-13076069502682700162008-03-11T09:41:00.003-04:002008-03-11T13:07:43.330-04:00Skin shopping Part 1Yes yes, I'm evil as I've never gotten around to posting any of the stuff I've planned... RL and SL both taking up way to much time... But, I am posting a new review now. This will be a multi-part review of my favorite skins I actually bought at the Skin Fair Expo going on right now in SL.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3295/2324951303_1d7844c6d5_b.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px;" src="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3295/2324951303_1d7844c6d5_b.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>The first skin is Tuli's Exotic skin in Natural Freckles coloring. It's not full body freckles like my previous skin of choice, but it keeps a nice freckly look to the face. It has high quality details and minimal make-up. In particular I like the collar bone and neck details, that make the neck look less like some cylinder on her shoulders and more like a real neck. And frankly who doesn't like a real looking neck? It's also got nice highlighting of the ever important cleavage and the same thing continues down farther with nice ab details and a good looking ass. All this combined made it my choice to replace my former skin, though I plan to use others at times... I also picked up another version with make-up, but sans freckles. Shadey though looks cute in freckles, so they stay.<br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3185/2321884575_62ffe4632e_b.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px;" src="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3185/2321884575_62ffe4632e_b.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>Next up is Pixel Deep's Medium skin in Fit Redhead coloring. This is part of the entire 'Medium Fit' pack, which is a good buy with all the variations in here. It's also modifiable to a degree allowing slightly darker or slightly lighter skin tones. The hair color is selectable by skin, so your eyebrows and pubes can even match your hair color. Their are even different skins for different amounts of pubic hair... The detailing is much like the Tuli skin here, though I think the abs are even a step better defined. It's also make-up light, though if I remember right the lips are tintable in a variety of shades.<br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2001/2322699944_3c0d153595_b.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px;" src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2001/2322699944_3c0d153595_b.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>Now we move on to Panjen's Eternal skin in Wine coloring. Eternal is a full freckle skin with freckles all over, which can be fun... If only I had a cute kitten to play 'count the freckles' with... But getting back to the skin, it's light on make-up though it does have some nice eyeshadow and highlighting, with a very pale lip color and a small amount of blush on the cheeks. It has good detail for most of the body, but the abs aren't as nice as on the previous to skins. It's sadly a bit in shadow in the pic, so it almost looks darker than the skins above though it's actually a shade lighter. The overall effect is very cute.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3132/2321886891_0285b693cb_b.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px;" src="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3132/2321886891_0285b693cb_b.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>Now we move to Gala's Luster skin in Monarch coloring. It's a darker skin than the last one, but I don't see this as a bad thing. It is all about the eye make up here, it's vivid yellows and orangish-reds in a sunburst style pattern. When I saw it, I knew I needed a skin with it... Otherwise it is very light on make-up, with not even lipstick. It's level of detail is nice as well and almost on par with the most detailed skins in this post, though it's a much 'softer' skin than most of those. Not so many options with this one either, but still lovely all on it's own.<br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2010/2322703732_16cbde64b8_b.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px;" src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2010/2322703732_16cbde64b8_b.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>The final skin in this post is EMA's Autumn skin in Shay coloring... Or vice versa, it's hard to tell without looking at their skin charts. It's actually one step darker than Gala's Luster skin, though the particular tone and coloring makes it look very Latino. Which is not a bad thing at all.<br />This is another eye makeup skin for me, it was all in the colorful pattern there rather than anything else that sold me on it. In this case the eye makeup was a colorful red and orange with leopard-like spots. As a neko how could I pass up eye makeup with spots? I couldn't of course. The details on this skin are very good and rival most of my other favorite skins in this list. It's also one of the most youthful looking skins I think in my collection.<br /><br />EMA and Panjen are some of the smallest designers from the show and I'd like to make sure they don't get overlooked as they have very nice skins. That's it for this part of my review, I'll do more tomorrow if I have time.theshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3468682920979876696.post-71305048552017283412008-02-05T13:12:00.000-05:002008-02-05T13:33:34.871-05:00So yeah...I have a few out of a bunch of pictures for outfits done.... And I got sick with a sinus/ear infection last week... Fun fun... So I've been like... totally lazy... Even missed two days of work once they finally let me take a day off...<br /><br />I was going to do some more Midian entries as well... But I've been to lazy for that as well... Maybe it's just the upcoming Valentines...? I dunno...<br /><br />But here is a story for you... I came across a nice newb guy in SL the other day, well as nice as they get when they hit on your for pixel sex, but he was at least a bit of a flirt... Some potential at least, so I figure I should give a helping hand and maybe one day he'll be a constructive citizen... So being a fashionista I ask him if he'd like a hand getting dressed up to look like a good slcitizen. <br /><br />Here is were I have to tell you he was a bare chested AV with system hair that looked like a mop on his head. A shape kinda like a short gorilla (he was about my height or SL 5 foot 11 inches) with a blocky face that reminded me of the old Max Hendron. Though he did have a not completely hopeless skin if you don't mind the hairy chest look and he was wearing bad freebie pants and system shoes.<br /><br />I could have made something out of him with a few minutes of slider work, a trip to the stores that give away hair to newbs under 30 days, and free dove/freebie jeebies/B@R's 10L shop. But he has somehow been convinced he looks 'good enough' and apparently can 'get any woman he wants', as well some 'long term resident' who was a woman told him he looked great. Err... no you look like a 2003 reject... o_0 Please let me help... 0_o<br /><br />But he got annoyed I think... And wandered off... Sadly later as I wandered a um... seeder collection of vendors for some risque clothes I got to see he couldn't emote to save his ass... So I maybe I should just let him be mediocre... One day he'll realize the only women he gets can't hold a conversation and may only be bots, but that's not my issue...theshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3468682920979876696.post-62793461133527638392008-01-22T10:54:00.000-05:002008-01-22T11:01:06.065-05:00Yeah...I know I've been off on doing updates, but I do have some things in the works...<br /><br />In the vein of the 25 group limit in SL getting blog feedback I'd love to draw attention to this <a href="http://jira.secondlife.com/browse/VWR-3184">Jira entry</a>. It covers an issue that effects me and anyone else who chooses to use a ATI/AMD video card rather than one from Nvidia. We get almost nothing out of Windlight except better light sourcing, but no pretty water or skies for us... So help out half the video card market and push this issue with the Linden's. My brand new $300 video card doesn't gain me anything in SL and keeps me from making even prettier pictures!theshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3468682920979876696.post-45829239548020697982007-12-17T08:08:00.000-05:002007-12-17T08:28:54.599-05:00Parties!I managed to have two parties on the same day... Overlapping each other this weekend... But I took some pics of each:<br /><br />Bloggers Party for December<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2293/2116998253_7c8990177b_b.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 320px;" src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2293/2116998253_7c8990177b_b.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2059/2117776592_74b4d9515b_b.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 320px;" src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2059/2117776592_74b4d9515b_b.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2416/2117776508_98b049a5a2_b.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 320px;" src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2416/2117776508_98b049a5a2_b.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2355/2117776180_1213cc1339_b.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 320px;" src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2355/2117776180_1213cc1339_b.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />My Apartment Warming/Beach Party<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2202/2117775390_9c69fdc566_b.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 320px;" src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2202/2117775390_9c69fdc566_b.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2343/2117775310_770939ef49_b.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px;" src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2343/2117775310_770939ef49_b.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2231/2117775210_b9954ef515_b.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 320px;" src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2231/2117775210_b9954ef515_b.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2290/2116996561_517e5717d4_b.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px;" src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2290/2116996561_517e5717d4_b.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>theshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3468682920979876696.post-1164538145145041132007-12-13T09:05:00.000-05:002007-12-17T08:08:37.382-05:00Midian Files: Return Week 2 Part 1This last week started with me trying to comfort those I know hit by Disco's death. Namely Markko and Edna. I finally saw Edna's husband Cadyn to, I know Cadyn from when he was dating my friend Rena who I keep trying to find though she's never around when I visit her haunts. They were busy with something I didn't really understand though, so I let them be after trying to cheer them up some. I did find out however that Disco's funeral would be the next day.<br /><br />The rest of the day was hanging out with new kittens. Specifically the new kitten, Brekka. I came across her when heading up to the den after my morning walk. She was talking with Thulana (I think, sorry If I'm wrong! my faulty memory) another new kitty. Soon we were joined by Fra, yet another new kitty since I'd left. And to make this an even bigger group that was when Dui arrived. We'd been trying to help her out while keeping her out of the den as the den is for walkers, all others are to be kept out without invitation from Rith or Chai. I'd even given Brekka a santa hat to keep her ears warm. Dui decided to invite us all to her sushi place. Everyone accepted, besides me. I wanted to find a few things before I forgot.<br /><br />Once I was done I joined everyone at Dui's very busy sushi bar. We even had Beatriz and Reiyn drop in. Both are walkers, Beatriz the older and Reiyn the newer. In fact I'd never meet Reiyn before coming back. Dui invited Brekka to join the walkers as a kitten like me. She accepted. Things broke up a bit soon after. Dui cooked me some <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Okonomiyaki" title="Okonomiyaki">Okonomiyaki</a> and <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Korokke" title="Korokke">Korokke</a>, yum! We took the kitten back to the den to give her the kittens tour, well more Dui did and I tagged along. In the end she decided to go to sleep so I gave her a blanket to keep her warm. Soon after I headed to my own bed for the night.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2278/2104728967_8ccd132a56_b.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 320px;" src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2278/2104728967_8ccd132a56_b.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>The next day was interesting... To say the least. My day would end with Disco's funeral, but the chaos started when Mari was caught on the den roof again by Reiyn who made a big fuss over it. Most of us don't want to get involved in it, but he stuck to Rith's rule hard and fast. Then Rith herself arrived and the gathering of kitties was about to watch a furball as Rith took action on Mari... Until Sarika got shot.<br /><br />It was a sniper on a roof up above. Most of the kitties besides myself and Rith took cover. Fra went to Sarika's side to try to stop the bleeding as did Dui, though not the bleeding part. Dui and Sarika are lovers, so it was hard on Dui. Sadly My first day in the walkers I had to patch Dui up in similar circumstances...<br /><br />Anyways... Beatriz, Mari, and Reiyn went into action hunting the sniper with Rith going up alogn the other side of buildings to hunt him. I decided to stay and see if I could help Sarika, but Fra had it under control so I decided to guard the door instead. The sniper suicided, but he was a strange one....<br /><br />Rith did have it out with Mari after that. I decided to head to Disco's funeral during it however... I stayed silent through most of it, but I just felt to guilty about her death to say anything. I also stood next to this tree which a 'thing' was up in... It smelled of burnt flesh and dripped, or rather oozed, blood and other fluids which caused me to spend alot of my none sulking time trying not to gag. It caused some fuss at the end of the funeral, but I was to tired and depressed to stay and watch.<br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">(More to come as it was a week full of events)</span>theshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3468682920979876696.post-1683581381162518572007-12-13T08:23:00.000-05:002007-12-13T08:56:43.854-05:00Midian Files: The Return<span style="font-weight: bold;">Yes, two installments in one week! This is more actual goings on in Midian rather than back story.</span><br /><br />Getting back to Midian was hard, but nothing like the challenge of actually reconnecting once I was back.<br /><br />It didn't help to learn the bits of news I heard on my return... My favorite kitten Myca was dead, as was Sadira and Myca's mate Landen. Some form of triple homicide/suicide. It makes me a sad kitty as I miss them. The catwalkers seem torn over the whole thing to, most don't even show up to the den anymore, it feels like a ghost town.<br /><br />Mari was also kicked out of the walkers for events I am not aware of, maybe it was the final straw after her shooting of an ex-kitten...? Oddly she hangs around the den which is what she killed the other kitten for after he left. I haven't really forgiven her for that yet, so maybe I'm just projecting though. Rith's ways are often mysterious, but then so are those of most leaders.<br /><br />I've also learned my favorite bar the Twilight Zone was shot up and now sits almost always empty. Reconstruction apparently not high on the list of priorities. It seems my old friend Cat was the one that shot the place up in a fight with some then TZ security woman.<br /><br />On that note I also discovered that my old friend Cat was now head of the Mercs with my friend Craven as her second. Though Cat is out of town right now. I hope she's not in as much danger as I was... Things had become estranged between me and her before I left, but she's still a friend. Craven on the other hand... Seems he managed to find himself a mate! She's a pretty thing named Honey. Which is odd to me as I remember a certain kitten with that name, they are nothing alike though.<br /><br />I even found Edna my favorite bartender, back in the days of Disco and Rej, now she runs a tattoo parlor. I also hear she got married! Everyone seems to be hooking up. Why can't I even get a date in Midian outside of Marie before she went crazy and got killed...? Anyways we had a nice long talk, it was nice that warm homey feeling...<br /><br />However this is Midian something bad must always happen... In this case it's that Disco was later found dead after having committed suicide. After fighting so hard to live, I can't understand someone giving up. Sadly I had seen her walk by Edna's shop before it happened and I thought to go say 'hi', but I decided to wait til later... Only there is no later now. It leaves you to wonder 'What if?', maybe I could have stopped her from going through with it... Then again maybe not. And we will never know.<br /><br />My friend Markko is the one that found her and it seems they had become very close friends before this. I'll try to cheer him up a bit... He's had his own troubles lately.... I hear he was kicked out of his faction for um... 'indiscretion' in certain 'activities'.<br /><br />It's been one week now since I've been back and I've missed so much. But I should be asleep, I'll write more later.theshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3468682920979876696.post-48701898096640299662007-12-12T08:10:00.001-05:002007-12-12T08:26:37.603-05:00Meme Game Round 2Well it seems <a href="http://streeterscene.wordpress.com/">Chloe</a> has chosen me to play this latest round of the meme game, so let's see here...<br /><br />The Rules: <p>(1) Each player starts with answering the questions about themselves.<br />(2) People who are tagged need to write a post on their own blog (answering same questions) and post these rules.<br />(3) At the end of your blog, you need to choose five people to get tagged and list their names.<br />(4) Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.</p>The Questions and answers:<br /><br />1. Are you and early shopper or a late shopper?<br />I shop all the time... So I get bits here and there whenever I found something that fits a person... Except in Sl where I already made my hand crafted gifties for people and started passing them out... ^_-<br /><br />2. What is your favorite cartoon (current or past)?<br />I can't count anime as cartoons (because it feels kind of insulting to compare them to US cartoons), so instead I'll pick a Hybred: Robotech. Yes I admit I'm a fan of giant robot/fighter planes battling aliens... It's also the only 'cartoon' I can remember where a major character dies on screen by bleeding to death after arriving at his girlfriends apartment to see her one last time.... *wipes tear* I still love that scene...<br /><br /><p>3. On a scale of 1-10, how competent are you on home repair projects?</p> I'm a 5. I can use a hammer, screw drivers, and even basic power tools like saws and such... I can also read directions... Just don't expect me to make to many straight lines... ^_-<br /><br />4. What is your favorite holiday tradition?<br /><br />It may sound bad, but I don't really have any... My parents were always big on putting up a tree and the whole decorating thing, but I never enjoyed it and that was there tradition... When I was little though I did have a tradition of waking up at 4 am in the morning to find the presents on Christmas day.... The next four hours would then be attempts to wake them up as I was not allowed to open presents without them...<br /><br />5. Describe your favorite kiss? Do you give it or receive it?<br /><br />I have to agree with Hawksrocks on this one (<a href="http://verbalstewii.blogspot.com/2007/12/holiday-meme-hawks.html">as seen here</a>). Passionate, lustful, and loving kisses all the way!<br /><br />I'm going to tag only one person at the moment: <a href="http://pandoradesigns.wordpress.com/">London Spengler</a>. I know she's not on much right now, but she deserves to play to... So when your back dear, take a moment to post! ;)theshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3468682920979876696.post-89158803834535494062007-12-10T12:58:00.000-05:002007-12-10T13:17:50.308-05:00Fashion Post: Sand DollarWell I know it's been like forever and a day since the last time I actually blogged about fashion... And god knows I'm not always looking for cute... But I found this adorable pair of undies from Sand Dollar by reading my friend <a href="http://pandoradesigns.wordpress.com/">London's blog</a>. So it was time to drive everyone nuts by posting three new posts in a day and adding fashion to the plate... If you haven't read my other posts today read from the bottom of the page to the top!<br /><br />Sand Dollar Fruits Basket Lingerie Set:<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2069/2096207011_ff1e921ffd_b.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 345px; height: 247px;" src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2069/2096207011_ff1e921ffd_b.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />I bought this in cherry and you probably can't see much of the pattern in this picture, but it's literally covered in cherry patterns in places. Each one having been apparently hand drawn. I love cherries (among other favorite red fruits) and so they look delicious to me...<br /><br />Better than that they are covered in little prim ribbons! Those would be the bits of red on the front of the panties in the picture, but there are more ribbons in other places you can't see in this pic.<br /><br />It also includes the stockings I'm wearing besides the bra and panties making it complete. As you can see from the picture I had to grab my Christmas Holiday Rufus from Deviant Kitties and snuggle into my new bed after putting it on!<br /><br />Now before I decide I must curl up in my bed and not do anything else today, I'll end this post suggesting that if you want to buy some adorable lingerie you should go find the Sand Dollar shop at Pandora's Place!theshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3468682920979876696.post-66296889135763777052007-12-10T11:08:00.000-05:002007-12-10T12:49:26.428-05:00Midian FIles: The Missing Tail<span style="font-style: italic;">What follows is a dark post on what happened to Shadey while I was away from both Midian and from SL due to work. I can add pics if demanded, but I'm betting most while be thankful near the end I didn't.</span><br /><br />It was a dark day when I decided to set out on this crazy plan... I'd been hunting for some trace of my sibs and failing and having run out of other options I decided on a radical course of action: Let the hunters catch me. It made sense, if these self same hunters had hunted them or worked with those that did I could have hopes of finding them. That was the dream and that was the plan... The results however were different...<br /><br />They knocked me out, tied me up, beat me whenever I complained and sometimes just for waking up. That however would prove the least of my hardships...<br /><br />I was loaded onto a plane and sent somewhere I didn't recognize. The destination though I later learned was a secret military base and research facility deep in the wilds of Africa or at least what was once called Africa. Here was to be my home for my captivity. A stay that was expected by them to be short and by me to be short, but for very different reasons.<br /><br />The shining light of the whole thing was being reunited with all my sibs in one place. Well those that hadn't died yet from what the scientists were doing to us. But it was a bitter moment as some were no longer even lucid enough to recognize me...<br /><br />These scientists were much like those that decided to re-engineer us to be better warriors, but while those had purpose these only held madness. They sought the limits of flesh and genes. Not with a specific goal, but just to watch how far a person could be twisted and yet live. Each was made into ghastly horrors best left unnamed, succumbing to the madness of being altered while alive and conscious... Then they tested... 'This one is now resistant to disease, let us invoke as many plagues into it as we can to see how durable it is.' And then the rest of us would be forced to watch as they sprayed, injected, inseminated, and otherwise victimized our much abused sib until their was nothing left to keep her body working as they had found the limit. What grizzly cold blooded things humans can be!<br /><br />After being forced to watch my sibs put through this routine far more times than I want to remember... It was my turn. Oh the pain! I can't begin to describe it... Your blood boils, your muscles spasm, your skin burns, your flesh crawls, and your bones <span style="font-weight: bold;">ache</span>. All my pain tolerance and martial arts meditative skills amounted to nothing in the face of it. In the end all that saved me was my will to live, to live and overcome!<br /><br />I don't know when I came to, but the scientists seemed so pleased by the results... Oh all of my sibs only I stayed in the same physical form after their experiments. My body had not broken or bent, but been tempered... It however was not the same is it had been. I noticed this quickly as the fire inside that had thirsted for blood and needed to be chained was missing... Their was still a fire, but it filled me and warmed me rather than driving me to rage and violence. I had yet to learn what this meant however. Neither did they.<br /><br />When the scientists came for me again I tried to escape, not wanting to be tested and was cut by one of the soldiers kept on hand to 'tame' us. But unlike normal I didn't bleed. A few flicks of blood came loose, but the wound sealed itself as it was made and nothing further came of it. The scientist were ecstatic wanting to see how I did it. They got their wish as the guards subdued me with difficulty.<br /><br />Each time I was wounded I didn't bleed out like any other creature and the wounds would heal quickly. I learned new levels of pain as they started small and scaled up their tests trying new ways and inflicting more damage to me. Cuts healed in seconds, burns healed almost as quick, acid was nullified and then the wounds would repair themselves. They moved on. Fingers were hacked off and regrew in minutes. The missing digit would decompose while they watched. Toes were burnt off and were rebuilt.<br /><br />Their time of reckoning however was at hand. They had decided to shop off an arm and see what would happen. They however had to have me shackled and chained to keep from tearing them apart and to keep me on their blood covered table. They hacked off my arm, but they spent to much time watching my previous limb decompose as the new one grew... A new arm unshackled and unchained.... The first one died quick, as did the second, the third lived awhile as he tried to run... Breaking free of my bounds was nothing, after all my body regrew itself and the pain it took to free myself was as nothing compared to being remade. Within an hour I was free.<br /><br />I checked on my sibs to find they had all perished while I was there plaything. May whatever lives on after have piece denied us in life. I had a mission though. My emotions would not be quenched and my mind could not be at ease while this place existed. things would be paid for and it would be in blood.<br /><br />By the time it was done I had learned the limits to my new regeneration. I was shot... and shot alot.... swiss cheese would have had less holes. I was shot in the head a few times, but that didn't kill me... I blacked out for an hour or two though... I was burnt. I was cooked with a variety of energy weapons. I was even hit with a anti-material rifle like I favor in combat. Normally that would kill anything alive, but it only knocked me out again.<br /><br />But they died and I lived. To finish the deed I rounded up all the explosives in the base. It was a pretty fire as the plum of scorched bits blasted into the sky. Ashes to ashes and all that.<br /><br />I turned now though to the future. I had lost my family, but I had one thing left to me. I had people who cared about me and I should have relied in more. Should have told of my crazy plan in the first place. I had friends who may not be able to replace what I'd lost, but would help me forge on. I had friends... In Midian.theshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3468682920979876696.post-85044656842471634692007-12-10T10:51:00.000-05:002007-12-10T11:08:41.448-05:00New House in SLWell I got talked into renting a condo apartment in SL, which I wasn't really unwilling to buy in the first place... If you remember way back when I had a house in the clouds on some group land some time back, but have otherwise been a homeless kitten... Now I have a house again... It's not much to look at from the outside, but it looks very nice inside after 2 days of decorating intensive care!<br /><br />The best part however is the view...<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2404/2096206681_f921d53584_b.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px;" src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2404/2096206681_f921d53584_b.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br />Now that is something I'd love to see every day in RL!<br /><br />Being on the beach also means having other fun to like:<br />This...<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2272/2096206849_566d4d3e3f_b.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 320px;" src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2272/2096206849_566d4d3e3f_b.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Or This...<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2103/2098523693_a821baef7d_b.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 320px;" src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2103/2098523693_a821baef7d_b.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />A kitten needs to play some to! All work and no play makes a very bored kitty...theshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3468682920979876696.post-35173848518480563742007-12-07T22:43:00.000-05:002008-11-14T22:23:56.221-05:00New LookAs you may be able to guess... I love changing my look, at least in SL, and I always see it as a work in progress... Well I decided I needed an update, so I went shopping... And what you see below is the result:<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhuJ0VBLycSWU79FJrg8MI90JJqJUDDyTVAgTPVh8wLo7fXKqfluszPmg3fiGzM2ZyM3THdpRPU1VPZ26l1XJCWDSzrGydW19X7reLcOxhYOsBU4WzW5rb_OdDqxBUcHzc1ZHHgGlvna5e9/s1600-h/newlook.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhuJ0VBLycSWU79FJrg8MI90JJqJUDDyTVAgTPVh8wLo7fXKqfluszPmg3fiGzM2ZyM3THdpRPU1VPZ26l1XJCWDSzrGydW19X7reLcOxhYOsBU4WzW5rb_OdDqxBUcHzc1ZHHgGlvna5e9/s320/newlook.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5141443627383697010" border="0" /></a>Some things that will never change in SL (Or at least I doubt they will): I will always be a red haired neko... I do occasionally get the urge to go purple and match a certain friend of mine in SL who is fairly famous, but I'm more a red person...<br /><br />So... I tweaked my shape.... In fact it's hard to tell, but Shadey now has some fat... I updated my curves as it were, though as another things I don't plan to change I didn't touch my bust... I tweaked my legs so I'm a tad shorter (I used to tower over half of all my neko friends, no idea now). I also changed my nose... My nose always looked to big for my face up close in SL...<br /><br />I went and bought a Tete a Pied skin (feline in buff type 3 makeup)... And I bought some snazzy business casual clothes from DE Designs... They are about the only thing I own that don't look odd to wear in the middle of winter... It really shows off my lavender kitty eyes.<br /><br />Which is important when Midian is a winter wonderland... buried in ice and snow... Only thing it's missing is an iceberg in the harbor...<br /><br />Well sleepy time now... More later...theshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3468682920979876696.post-18815851621041737292007-12-06T13:57:00.000-05:002007-12-06T14:40:40.191-05:008 Things...Well I'm guessing most of you know abotu the whole 8 things meme floating around the SL blogsphere... Well Timothy pseudo-tagged me, so I guess I should give my 8 things... Though since I can't think of anyone who hasn't been tagged yet I won't pass it on unless I find some victims... ;)<br /><br />1. One of my hobbies is Photography... Though I've always been a digital person, so my camera of choice right now is my <a href="http://www.fujifilm.com/products/digital_cameras/s/finepix_s5700/index.html">Fujifilm S5700</a> in RL. Which is probably related to why I like pics in SL...<br /><br />2. I run an Anime/Manga/J-Pop club in RL and that's where I am for about 4 hours every Saturday unless I feel to sick or lazy to go...<br /><br />3. I'm allergic to certain foods... Including Onions, Peppers, and Mushrooms... Now you try finding foods without those from say... Everyone likes to hide their inclusion because people don't think someone may not be able to eat them... (On that note my family is full of strange food allergies, my mom can't eat grains and my dad can't eat nuts).<br /><br />4. I'm an only child. Which for where I live is odd. It however didn't mean I was spoiled... In fact it usually meant my parents went out of their way to make me fight for whatever I got out of them. Mostly because we were not quite middle class, in fact their attempts to act like they were a middle class family ended with them file for bankruptcy during my first time through college...<br /><br />5. I've been in college twice... & Owe $60,000 USD for the 'honor' of doing that...<br /><br />6. I teach an 'enrichment' class at the school I work for called 'Computer Imaging' and I have to try manage up to 16 kids from 4th to 8th grades... Who would rather spend most of their time playing flash games where they dissect people or find creative suicide methods in office buildings... 0_o<br /><br />7. I am not a red head in RL... Nor have I ever bothered to color my hair... In fact in RL I started with hair so blonde it was nearly white, but now it's just a kind of brown with natural blonde highlights... Unfortunately not where I want them and that fade to be unnoticeable by the end of a day...<br /><br />8. I originally intended to be a writer and when I told my 7th grade teacher that she chose to make me hate english classes and 'traditional literature' for the rest of my life... I still however write Science Fiction, I just refuse to follow any of the 'styles' your taught to write in and do what I want...<br /><br />& that's 8... ;)theshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3468682920979876696.post-47359359191174412442007-12-05T07:14:00.000-05:002007-12-05T07:29:10.297-05:00Cleaning up the dust and cobwebsHey everyone!<br /><br />I've actually stopped into SL a few times lately for the first time in awhile, but I haven't posted on here... Things feel so different when I've gone back to my usual haunts. It makes me kinda sad...<br /><br />I have missed my SL friends though... Often quite alot during the ups and downs of RL. In the time since I got back together with the woman I love only to have her dump me in just over a week of being back together for a stupid guy... >_> Now they have broken up... I still haven't meet anyone else... I guess the world just doesn't appreciate introverts...<br /><br />Work is still driving me nuts, but at the moment I have an intern so it somewhat lightens my load... At least until the end of the day, then I'm still the one getting called at home at all sorts of crazy hours... Oh and to make things more fun this week has started the annual snowfall here along the great lakes... Making my drive to and from work take longer.... Yeah... <_<<br /><br />Back to SL... Of course the first thing I did was buy more clothes.... Lots of clothes... Like everything new from Dark Eden to start.. ^_^<br /><br />I also built a new PC (Yeah for my geek girlness!)... Which laughs at SL and asks "Can't you make me work harder...?" as I've cranked up all the settings as high as they go and SL never freezes or slows like it used to... I do however still have to wait on SL's slow transfer rate and watch as the scenery and people pop into existence, but their is no helping that... My pictures should look better from now on to...<br /><br />Well that's all for now I'll try to come up with some new posts over the christmas break at work if not before!theshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3468682920979876696.post-40862012122573552642007-08-30T07:50:00.000-04:002007-08-30T07:53:01.861-04:00Work interfering with lifeWell for the last couple weeks work has ben interfering with me having a life, yet alone a second life... I spend all sorts of time at work and then I'm so tired when I get home at night I just want to eat dinner and go to bed...<br /><br />So for the time being the blog is on hold (as you probably ahve already noticed). So is my existance in SL... I hope things work out at work and I can lighten my load soon... Cross your fingers for me!theshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3468682920979876696.post-31228123558601087252007-08-18T13:29:00.000-04:002007-12-13T11:06:05.226-05:00Midian Files Episode 3First a few notes... I have the pictures done finally for my swimsuit review... In fact they've been done for 3 days now... I just need to find time to do the review posts (probably 2 as their are dozens of swimsuits). <span style="font-weight: bold;">Edit: Which didn't happen, but you can see them on my flickr page.</span><br /><br />Now to Midian for part 3 people have been asking me for since I didn't get a chance to post this week:<br /><br />-------------------------------------------------------<br />Well this week hasn't been as interesting as last. Ok, maybe that's not quite correct. I did have one good night in the TZ... Which has become my usual haunt were I drink later as I still don't know what these drinks are...<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Edit: And this is where it ended, I never finished this post, but since I started on Midian Files #4 I decided to at least post this much... Things are rather fuzzy for me as to what happened which week/month/etc that far back now (5 or 6 months ago), so I can't finish it now... Sorry!</span>theshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3468682920979876696.post-17891127123277309232007-08-08T09:10:00.000-04:002007-08-08T12:56:35.561-04:00Midian Files Episode 2Week 2 has been a tad more interesting I found a place called the "Twilight Zone" look the old TV series, or 'TZ' for short. I've never been around alcohol as it was forbidden to us, but They don't seem to mind I just drink bottles of water. I did however meet this cute neko there, kind of raccoon looking facial markings which make her very unique looking. Seems she works as a dancer there, and sometimes bar tender, and her name is Rejeanne. It's to bad she seems to be involved with this cute human woman that handles security...<br /><br />I also meet two other women: Catrin and Rin. Catrin is a very sexy human woman who seems awfully nice. Rin seems a bit quiet and her clothes are a bit weird, but she's cute and nice to. They introduced me to a friend of theirs this guy named Markko, who has a weird past were he was raised by nekos. I uh... I... Well I kind of got a bit kinky as they ended up going down in the subway station and started making out in a non-functional subway car... It _had_ been six months since this cute little kitten had done much of anything, so I joined in...<br /><br />I also wandered the rooftops this week hoping to spot some of these nekos from the city, the 'catwalkers'. In the end I did find some as I ended up on the roof of one of the buildings in town and I sat high up on this ledge as I surveyed the city.... Until I was assaulted with rocks from below and lost my grip avoiding them... To land almost on top of this cute purple/pink haired neko girl.... Who was talking with this older male neko. They told me I was in their 'den' and that I had to leave. I tried apologizing, but they were rather annoyed, so I hopped down to the side and listened. Seemed the girl had been attacked recently, so she was not in such a good mood...<br /><br />I ended up coming back to sit on the top of this warehouse across from the church. I had tried scaling the church to use as a hide out, but a very strange girl who looked like she hadn't bathed in weeks confronted me and told me I couldn't be there either... She didn't make much sense really, but I did understand that much. Anyways on top of the warehouse roof the cute neko girl from the 'den' dropped in and told me I couldn't be up there either... :(<br /><br />She did however offer to show me a good place to stay... So I followed her and she lead me down by the beach. I also got her name which was Myca.theshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3468682920979876696.post-37070116716520445722007-08-01T12:28:00.000-04:002007-08-01T14:20:23.030-04:00Midian Files Episode 1Well here is the first installment of my Midian Diary of sorts... It will be told from the point of view of the character I play in Midian.<br /><br />In Midian 'Shadow' or 'Shadey' is what everyone knows me as and there she's a neko who has a sort of tragic past involving the loss of her family who were part of a military project. She's been a soldier all her life (literally raised into it). And when the project was canceled the military tried to erase them all. She has no idea what happened to them, but she decided to head to Midian in hopes they would arrive there as well as a haven for those with things to hide...<br /><br />Week 1:<br /><br />Well I managed to get a ride into Midian and they dropped me off at the taxi hub. It wasn't easy getting here, especially and still have some cash on hand.... Good thing I have that spec ops bank account to draw on, I should be able to pull out money in small pieces from it for quite some time.<br /><br />Midian is a strange place.... Enough spooky emo kids/adults with pale skin to start a town of there own... Plenty of humans walking around with guns... Which reminds em I need to replace my weapons... I hadn't having to leave them behind. Some incredibly freaky people and frankly I have no clue where to start my search for my sibs... It's been six months now, I wonder if they are even still alive...?<br /><br />I found an interesting collection of people by this canal after I finished wondering over town and found a spot to secure my gear way up on a roof to one of the taller buildings. This group had not one, but four nekos in it and a human... The human was the most normal looking I'd seen in my time spent in Midian so far. While I may want to meet up with the nekos to see if they know anything about my missing family... Four at once is a bit much.... Luckily the nekos all left eventually and I went to talk to the normal looking man. He mentioned to me that their was two factions of nekos in the city: the Catwalkers and the Pack. He then suggested I set out wandering the wastelands til I found them... The wastelands is mostly dead remains of buildings... I should know since that's where I did go afterwards. Never found anything or any of these members of the 'Pack', but that's ok he still gave me useful info... Oh his name was... Jack... I think...?theshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3468682920979876696.post-58660407983024762002007-07-30T09:16:00.000-04:002007-07-30T10:31:46.933-04:00Updates & Where I come from (online)Yes, I've been neglecting this spot... And I really shouldn't... I do have yet more tats and bikinis ready... for whenever I get around to taking some new pictures to use... ^_^ Those will be my next fashion posts... I also have some stuff from Glass Earth's various members and a trip to Dark Eden and SiniStyle added some more items... If it didn't take like 4 hours for one of my fashion reports I'd do more... ^_^<br /><br />All that said London asked me to share my online history when I mentioned it on her blog the other day that I've been online for ages (in internet time). See I was a lonely girl who had just moved from a tiny little town (200-300 people) to a somewhat larger town (3000-5000 people). I was shy and didn't make friends easily and really I was super innocent compared to the troubled lives of some of my class mates. Somethings I've come to realize since I started working at a charter school in the 'inner city' of a large city (300k+ people) is that small towns in the middle of nowhere have the same issues as inner city areas. Poverty, unemployment, lack of motivation in learning, lack of access to facilities to help you learn, and I could go on but it's not the focus of this post...<br /><br />Anyways the school had a Apple IIC lab that as a fifth grader I visited once a week... And I loved them... They didn't tease me, or make fun of me, and were always happy to do whatever I could tell them to do... Oh sure they had their limits, but I could enjoy myself in ways vaguely like interacting with people without the downsides I felt around them... This discovery went on to firmly plant me into a 'geek' role for the rest of my life, but my love of various scientific topics would probably have done that anyways...<br /><br />Middle School however lacked a computer lab and in another twist of fate my parents one summer asked me a question: "We want to buy something for all of us to use, so here are the options which would you prefer: a pool or a computer?" A computer, duh! I may have loved to swim, but swimming by yourself isn't much fun... and I was content with PC's as fun... This also set up my love of PC games...<br /><br />The internet though as we know it didn't exist yet. There were a few different types of services though... AOL was still in it's infancy and not the ASL paradise it is now, Compuserve was around... Though neither was a an 'ISP' as those didn't exist yet, other nitch providers like Genie existed. It was also the era of BBS's, but their were no local BBS's for me and I managed to get in some serious trouble after discovering them with a huge $500 phone bill for my parents... Luckily the phone company decided it was an error... I also remember also figuring out ways around AOL's adult materials filter... I was a horny little 14 year old cause I most assuredly was not even kissing anyone yet and had not a clue about sexuality... But I knew I liked the idea of seeing people naked... Maybe I could even find one of people having sex! (shock!). Well I didn't find any sex pictures (so some of those questions wouldn't be answered for years), but I did find a picture of this beautiful naked asian woman... Which I think is what started my fetish for asian women... ^_^ I also got addicted to erotic stories in that time.. giving me all sorts of creative ideas if I'd had anyone to share them with! ^_-<br /><br />By the second half of high school though the internet had been born! It's birth had been painful though as dial-up internet sucks (I can't believe people can stand to use it still, I so feel sorry for you Chloe!). But we had the beginning of the internet filled with as much junk as today... Just with less porn... We could even still use bitmap images on the web in html 1.0, as jpeg hadn't been fleshed out yet and gif was the only compressed image format available as an alternative to it.<br /><br />After high school and on to college I finally got my first real ISP and I discovered chat rooms via IRC... I also discovered what I'd found gaming back on genie... Women and girls were a minority... suggesting you were a woman made the men scurry for cover or hit on you... The attention sometimes was way to bad... 20 or 30 guys to each woman... Ugh... So I hid... I played at being a guy online... I think alot of women did when they found out the same thing I had... I then found BBS's and more importantly MUD's, MUX's, MUCKS and all the other MU*'s, virtual worlds where you could create objects, interact with other people, make things... But it was all in text... I'd had an exposure to virtual sex with IRC and after wading into various MU*'s I discovered adult ones... Ones for people to live out virtual fantasies... The first I visited made me understand BDSM and most of it's concepts and flavors... As it was a master/slave world... you had to pick a role between the two and they required you to be 'trained' before being 'sold' to an owner... I moved on to another MU* that was more a general free for all of sexual ideas soon after....<br /><br />I then spent the next 5 years playing off and on in those worlds between other things... In the end though I got tired of the drama and feeling like an outsider as I didn't 'live the life' in the Real World... I did however meet the first person I ever kissed or had sex with RL online during this time... Though that was one day... And she was a crazy nymphomaniac... I won't delve into that unless someone asks, but all she wanted was a one time thing and that ended up hurting me... As it was my first time...<br /><br />I however took a vacation from virtual sex... I didn't enjoy it nearly as much one a forum or some such and even IM was hard... I did however have a best friend who I only knew online from the MU*'s that I'd still play with occasionally until I lost her contact info... It's been nearly 4 years now since I last talked to her... I've been in and out of virtual worlds before this point... All sorts of beta testing of online games... But those really were just games... I even saw the beginning of Second Life... But I tried it for a day back in it's early days and the need to create everything you wanted held me back from joining in... I didn't want to have to create clothes so I'm not ugly, or build all the objects in the world I wanted to interact with... Not then at least... Not until a few months ago when I was between things to do online and saw another mention of Second Life... And decided to give it another look in the five years it's been since the first look I'd given it... Second Life has that adult presence that bored me with MMO's... Well that and being stuck in 'set' articles of clothing as you leveled... I always felt I looked like everyone else and hated it... Not so in SL as I pour way to much money into looking different all the time...! ^_-theshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3468682920979876696.post-64407975310236428572007-07-25T08:04:00.000-04:002007-07-25T09:18:33.867-04:00Love & Sex (In & Out) of SLI've been meaning to write a post for days... In fact I have one half done that has been sitting in my drafts folder for at least a week now. I've just been trying not to think about certain things, so I've been obsessing over things I can do that don't have to involve thinking about what I'm trying to avoid thinking of. But I'm throwing that out the window to make a post, because I have been thinking about it.<br /><br />Well Since <a href="http://pandoradesigns.wordpress.com/">London</a>, <a href="http://rrhk.blogspot.com/">Katrina</a>, & <a href="http://sophrosyne-sl.livejournal.com/">Sophosyne</a> spend so much time talking about it and it's been on my mind lately for RL reasons... I decided to post my own take on Love & Sex (in and out of SL).<br /><br />I'm different from those three in that I have trouble loving people... People fall into three categories with me: general public, friends, loves.<br /><br />General Public are the teeming masses (some of which probably read this blog! ^_^ ) which are anyone I don't really know or only know a bit. I'm not likely to IM you in world and under the big blue sky I will probably only deal with you if you live nearby or work somewhere that I visit regularly... And unfortunately I will probably forever forget your name... I'm horrible with names...<br /><br />Friends are people I care about. Alot of which I may not even see anymore for one reason or another, but they are still important to me. Unfortunately the ones I haven't seen in years I remember, but can't remember their names all the time ;.; I told you I have a bad memory for names... Those I do see regularly don't have to worry... If I remember your name, then your a friend... I'll play (sexually at times) with friends and try to be there for them, but I would say I'm not really in love with them... There are limits to how close I'll get or even want to get... This can at times annoy those who are polyamorous around me... But it's just the way I am... Plenty of people in SL fall into this category and if I play with you sexually in SL and your not paying me for it... Your probably in this list... ;)<br /><br />Loves.... Well their have only ever been two loves in my nigh thirty RL years... Both I hold dear to me and both have frustrated me to know end.... The first I couldn't take being around anymore, because she did not feel the same way about me and seeing her with others made me happy and tore me up all at the same time... So I had to walk away... I miss her alot though and I wish she'd kept in touch even if just by email... The other love of my life is the one currently driving me crazy... I waited almost six years for a chance to be with her....<br /><br />Those I have loved are true loves... absolute loves... I'd die for them without thinking about it. I have and probably will give them every cent I have if they need it, no matter if I do to. And the love is unconditional. But I'm selfish... Those I love I want to love me, and only me... At least in the romantic & lustful way.<br /><br />When I think about it, I see that I try to feel loved by being with my friends... But it's always a sort of filler for my desire to be loved by those few people I have loved... I'm not sure if that's good or bad... If that means I use others who I don't really love by possibly leading them on and suggesting they mean more to me then they do... But it is what it is and I don't think I could just stop doing that. Much like most people I don't want to be lonely... And I don't want to start humping trees because my sex drive is all crazy at times... I'd really hate to see what happens if I can't at least get a little online every week or so...<br /><br />Which leads me into this: For me sex is something I do to feel loved... Usually at least as I have acted as an escort in SL (though few people are hiring me, visit Virgins & Vixens and give me some work!), which is very much not usually about feeling loved... It's more desiring pretty things and compensation for my time... But even then... I think I'd turn down some people, in fact I basically have before... I don't want 'sexual partners' that just sit there and go 'oohhh...', If ya can't turn me on then I'm not gonna get you off... My friends I don't worry so much about... Most are capable of at least keeping up... In fact my friends that get a chance to be with me sexually are the ones who I feel can keep up in a sexual experience... The same is true in RL as in SL... I don't take a friend as a brief sexual experience if I think they are boring... Of course if you have me as an RL friend, then I thought you were worth being around anyways... I however don't tend to sleep with my friends RL to often, in fact the only times I have is when I've 'dated' friends... Which is usually for no more than a month... Then I get bored and usually the other person gets hurt... I don't mean it to happen... I do care for them, but without that deep love I get bored of the feelings I get from someone I don't love to... That sounds so wrong, but it's the case... Online I can go months or years... One woman I meet online (back in my MUX days pre-3D graphics) and I considered her my best friend for years. We would often have virtual sex... Even via IM back when I used ICQ (which was one of the first IM clients before everyone wanted to create one). Online I seem to be able to be friends and have virtual sex with them and not cause issues... Unless the other person gets to greedy... Which is a whole different topic...<br /><br />But I think this explains my take on love and sex and I feel like I've been talking for hours (probably because I've spent nearly two hours typing this. So I love it at this for now.theshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3468682920979876696.post-2996169814855010162007-07-18T07:31:00.000-04:002007-07-18T07:35:06.923-04:00Poetry, Lonely Hearts: Between& Now for the one I wrote today, which to me sums up how I've felt since Sunday when she told me again we needed time apart... She's been hinting at that for months, but silly me I've been trying to support her through the hard times... But she just wants to distance herself from everyone, saying she needs 'space' and wants 'freedom'... To bad for me, my feelings just can't be turned off like a switch... Yesterday she told me during my lunch at work that if I couldn't be happy she didn't want to see me... And she didn't seem to understand she is the only thing that's ever really made me happy... Making a fairly self defeating situation... Anyways...<br /><br />-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------<br /><br />Between<br /><br /><br />You are the flame that has kept the darkness in my soul away<br />Before you all I knew was loneliness, pain, bitterness, and anger<br /><br />The loneliness consumed me drawing me into despair<br />The Pain made it hurt to touch anyone<br />The Bitterness kept me from succeeding<br />The Anger made me want to hurt everyone<br /><br />You are the heat that warmed the cold places of my heart<br />You are the light that pushed back the darkness in my soul<br /><br />I was with you and I was lonely no more<br />I was with you and that made the pain fade<br />I was with you and the bitterness no longer held me back<br />I was with you and the anger let me leash it<br /><br />But now you want to be alone, Independent you say<br />Your my flame and it is going out<br /><br />My loneliness returns, making me want you all the more<br />My Pain blooms, making it hurt not to touch you<br />My Bitterness awakens, and I no longer find a reason to be more<br />My Anger consumes, and I want to hurt everyone except you<br /><br />But all I seem to do is hurt you now<br />And that is the last thing I want<br /><br />I'm in between and feel so lost...<br />Where has my light gone again...?theshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3468682920979876696.post-15271957512683645872007-07-18T07:28:00.001-04:002007-07-18T07:31:12.472-04:00Poetry, Lonely Hearts, Prefect for MePerfect For Me<br /><br />I think you are perfect for me<br />After all the time I’ve spent with you<br />Longing kicks in and I start to see<br />The edge of the bed<br />Where you should be<br />I told myself I won't miss you<br />But I remember<br />What it feels like beside you<br />I really miss your hair in my face<br />And the way your innocence tastes<br />And I think you should know this<br />You are perfect for me<br /><br />While looking through your old box of notes<br />I found those pictures I took<br />That you were looking for<br />If there's one memory I don't want to lose<br />That time at the mall<br />You and me in the picture booth<br />I told myself I won't miss you<br />But I remember<br />What it feels like beside you<br />I really miss your hair in my face<br />And the way your innocence tastes<br />And I think you should know this<br />You are perfect for me<br /><br />The bed I'm lying in is getting colder<br />Wish I could hold you<br />And I can't pretend... I won't think about you when I'm older<br />Cause we should never really have to<br />This isn’t the end<br />I really miss your hair in my face<br />And the way your innocence tastes<br />And I think you should know this<br />You are perfect for me<br />I really miss your hair in my face<br />And the way your innocence tastes<br />And I think you should know this<br />You are perfect for me<br />(And I think you should know this)<br /><br />---------------------------------------<br />This may sounds familiar and you'd be right... My girl told me she thought the Hinder song 'You can do much better than me' was so apt, as she always has considered herself somehow less than me... Well It spurred me to rewrite the lyrics to something I felt was more fitting...theshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3468682920979876696.post-27012650883162739142007-07-18T07:27:00.000-04:002007-07-18T07:28:14.904-04:00Poetry, Lonely Hearts, Always<div style="text-align: center;">Always<br /><br />If I said the wrong thing would you leave me?<br />Though my fingers may break,<br />I just can't let you go.<br /><br />I will always love you,<br />I love you and I need you.<br />Till my heart stops beating,<br />I'll never lose this feeling<br /><br />Though I'm not your best friend,<br />I'd do anything to keep you with me.<br />So close your eyes and hold on tight, spin around its alright.<br />Don't you see my plans will always have you in them?<br /><br />I will always love you,<br />I love you and I need you.<br />Till my heart stops beating,<br />I'll never lose this feeling</div>theshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3468682920979876696.post-28945209492697245552007-07-18T07:24:00.000-04:002007-07-18T07:27:28.475-04:00Poetry, Lonely Hearts: My Love<div style="text-align: center;">My Love<br /></div><br />My Love is Eternal<br /><div style="text-align: center;">It has lasted for six years already<br />Without dimming or fading<br /></div><br />My Love is Caring<br /><div style="text-align: center;">I think of you first<br />And how I can make you happy<br /></div><br />My Love is Romantic<br /><div style="text-align: center;">My love inspires me to do things for you<br />To brighten your day and make you smile<br /></div><br />My Love is Sexual<br /><div style="text-align: center;">My love is also part of my desire for you<br />I need your touch and your kiss<br /></div><br />My Love is Strong<br /><div style="text-align: center;">My love gathers strength from you<br />And lets me do amazing things<br /></div><br />My Love is for you and only youtheshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3468682920979876696.post-53012543504003235062007-07-18T07:12:00.000-04:002007-07-18T07:24:35.751-04:00Poetry, Lonely Hearts: My AngelWell I'm about to make a crazy number of posts as I decided to post my poetry to my blog... Well I wanted to do the last poem I made up here and they are really a set, so I need to start from the beginning...<br /><br /><br />---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------<br /><div style="text-align: center;">My Angel<br /></div><br />I gazed upon a sight<br /><div style="text-align: center;">That took my breath away<br /></div><div style="text-align: right;">An angel come to earth<br /></div><br />When I look into your eyes<br /><div style="text-align: center;">I believe there is a heaven<br /></div><div style="text-align: right;">To match this hell<br /></div><br />When every mans hand was raised against me<br /><div style="text-align: center;">When every mans back was turned to me<br /></div><div style="text-align: right;">You stretched out your hand to me<br /></div><br />In that instant you became<br /><div style="text-align: center;">The world to me<br /></div><div style="text-align: right;">And for the first time I felt free<br /></div><br />Free to love<br /><div style="text-align: center;">Free to laugh<br /></div><div style="text-align: right;">Free to be me<br /></div><br />But I’m just a mortal<br /><div style="text-align: center;">Human to the core<br /></div><div style="text-align: right;">Faulty as any can be<br /></div><br />Can it really be, that an angel wants to be with me?theshadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16488523944136673606noreply@blogger.com0