Monday, July 30, 2007

Updates & Where I come from (online)

Yes, I've been neglecting this spot... And I really shouldn't... I do have yet more tats and bikinis ready... for whenever I get around to taking some new pictures to use... ^_^ Those will be my next fashion posts... I also have some stuff from Glass Earth's various members and a trip to Dark Eden and SiniStyle added some more items... If it didn't take like 4 hours for one of my fashion reports I'd do more... ^_^

All that said London asked me to share my online history when I mentioned it on her blog the other day that I've been online for ages (in internet time). See I was a lonely girl who had just moved from a tiny little town (200-300 people) to a somewhat larger town (3000-5000 people). I was shy and didn't make friends easily and really I was super innocent compared to the troubled lives of some of my class mates. Somethings I've come to realize since I started working at a charter school in the 'inner city' of a large city (300k+ people) is that small towns in the middle of nowhere have the same issues as inner city areas. Poverty, unemployment, lack of motivation in learning, lack of access to facilities to help you learn, and I could go on but it's not the focus of this post...

Anyways the school had a Apple IIC lab that as a fifth grader I visited once a week... And I loved them... They didn't tease me, or make fun of me, and were always happy to do whatever I could tell them to do... Oh sure they had their limits, but I could enjoy myself in ways vaguely like interacting with people without the downsides I felt around them... This discovery went on to firmly plant me into a 'geek' role for the rest of my life, but my love of various scientific topics would probably have done that anyways...

Middle School however lacked a computer lab and in another twist of fate my parents one summer asked me a question: "We want to buy something for all of us to use, so here are the options which would you prefer: a pool or a computer?" A computer, duh! I may have loved to swim, but swimming by yourself isn't much fun... and I was content with PC's as fun... This also set up my love of PC games...

The internet though as we know it didn't exist yet. There were a few different types of services though... AOL was still in it's infancy and not the ASL paradise it is now, Compuserve was around... Though neither was a an 'ISP' as those didn't exist yet, other nitch providers like Genie existed. It was also the era of BBS's, but their were no local BBS's for me and I managed to get in some serious trouble after discovering them with a huge $500 phone bill for my parents... Luckily the phone company decided it was an error... I also remember also figuring out ways around AOL's adult materials filter... I was a horny little 14 year old cause I most assuredly was not even kissing anyone yet and had not a clue about sexuality... But I knew I liked the idea of seeing people naked... Maybe I could even find one of people having sex! (shock!). Well I didn't find any sex pictures (so some of those questions wouldn't be answered for years), but I did find a picture of this beautiful naked asian woman... Which I think is what started my fetish for asian women... ^_^ I also got addicted to erotic stories in that time.. giving me all sorts of creative ideas if I'd had anyone to share them with! ^_-

By the second half of high school though the internet had been born! It's birth had been painful though as dial-up internet sucks (I can't believe people can stand to use it still, I so feel sorry for you Chloe!). But we had the beginning of the internet filled with as much junk as today... Just with less porn... We could even still use bitmap images on the web in html 1.0, as jpeg hadn't been fleshed out yet and gif was the only compressed image format available as an alternative to it.

After high school and on to college I finally got my first real ISP and I discovered chat rooms via IRC... I also discovered what I'd found gaming back on genie... Women and girls were a minority... suggesting you were a woman made the men scurry for cover or hit on you... The attention sometimes was way to bad... 20 or 30 guys to each woman... Ugh... So I hid... I played at being a guy online... I think alot of women did when they found out the same thing I had... I then found BBS's and more importantly MUD's, MUX's, MUCKS and all the other MU*'s, virtual worlds where you could create objects, interact with other people, make things... But it was all in text... I'd had an exposure to virtual sex with IRC and after wading into various MU*'s I discovered adult ones... Ones for people to live out virtual fantasies... The first I visited made me understand BDSM and most of it's concepts and flavors... As it was a master/slave world... you had to pick a role between the two and they required you to be 'trained' before being 'sold' to an owner... I moved on to another MU* that was more a general free for all of sexual ideas soon after....

I then spent the next 5 years playing off and on in those worlds between other things... In the end though I got tired of the drama and feeling like an outsider as I didn't 'live the life' in the Real World... I did however meet the first person I ever kissed or had sex with RL online during this time... Though that was one day... And she was a crazy nymphomaniac... I won't delve into that unless someone asks, but all she wanted was a one time thing and that ended up hurting me... As it was my first time...

I however took a vacation from virtual sex... I didn't enjoy it nearly as much one a forum or some such and even IM was hard... I did however have a best friend who I only knew online from the MU*'s that I'd still play with occasionally until I lost her contact info... It's been nearly 4 years now since I last talked to her... I've been in and out of virtual worlds before this point... All sorts of beta testing of online games... But those really were just games... I even saw the beginning of Second Life... But I tried it for a day back in it's early days and the need to create everything you wanted held me back from joining in... I didn't want to have to create clothes so I'm not ugly, or build all the objects in the world I wanted to interact with... Not then at least... Not until a few months ago when I was between things to do online and saw another mention of Second Life... And decided to give it another look in the five years it's been since the first look I'd given it... Second Life has that adult presence that bored me with MMO's... Well that and being stuck in 'set' articles of clothing as you leveled... I always felt I looked like everyone else and hated it... Not so in SL as I pour way to much money into looking different all the time...! ^_-

4 comments:

Timothy Lilliehook said...

Good to know there's somebody else out there who still remembers the good old BBS times :)
Gee, I guess I should write a history like that, too ... including the time where I played a female goddess on a MUD ;)

Ginseng Kyong said...

MU*'s!!! yeah!!

in MUDS I would always have a bunch of low level characters... always wanted to try all the options. I liked my dark dwarf character.. forget the name of the race, but when ever he would step out in the sunlight he would take damage, though the mud got rid of that cool feature, so it was not as fun playing.
Another character I liked was my ogre, he had the skill to butcher the corpse of the creature he had just slain, but when they got rid of the need to eat, that was no longer fun other than the text of eating a elf steak.
Guess my most favorite character to play was the hobbit who was so fast he could be the tank, but if he got hit about 3 times, he would be almost dead.

So a small town school has the same problems as any other town? What was it like growing up in the same location most your life? Hmm we moved around a lot, I was always the new guy in schools.

thanks for sharing your intimate history, it was real fun to read.. brings back my own memories of childhood.

theshadow said...

Well I did live in two different towns in the past, and the 'big city' now... As well as an even larger city during college (roughly 750k people).

So I've been the new person more than a few times, but I'm really not good at it... I'm not really very shy anymore... So it's more a lingering... Quietness at times. But I spent five years in retail the only good part about that is I can't really be afraid to talk to peopel when it's part of my job...

London Spengler said...

The MUD and the BBS; I am sad about missing that times, but Spain was very late reaching Internet... that's why I love so much to know what happened in that times :-)