Monday, December 17, 2007

Parties!

I managed to have two parties on the same day... Overlapping each other this weekend... But I took some pics of each:

Bloggers Party for December
















































My Apartment Warming/Beach Party














Thursday, December 13, 2007

Midian Files: Return Week 2 Part 1

This last week started with me trying to comfort those I know hit by Disco's death. Namely Markko and Edna. I finally saw Edna's husband Cadyn to, I know Cadyn from when he was dating my friend Rena who I keep trying to find though she's never around when I visit her haunts. They were busy with something I didn't really understand though, so I let them be after trying to cheer them up some. I did find out however that Disco's funeral would be the next day.

The rest of the day was hanging out with new kittens. Specifically the new kitten, Brekka. I came across her when heading up to the den after my morning walk. She was talking with Thulana (I think, sorry If I'm wrong! my faulty memory) another new kitty. Soon we were joined by Fra, yet another new kitty since I'd left. And to make this an even bigger group that was when Dui arrived. We'd been trying to help her out while keeping her out of the den as the den is for walkers, all others are to be kept out without invitation from Rith or Chai. I'd even given Brekka a santa hat to keep her ears warm. Dui decided to invite us all to her sushi place. Everyone accepted, besides me. I wanted to find a few things before I forgot.

Once I was done I joined everyone at Dui's very busy sushi bar. We even had Beatriz and Reiyn drop in. Both are walkers, Beatriz the older and Reiyn the newer. In fact I'd never meet Reiyn before coming back. Dui invited Brekka to join the walkers as a kitten like me. She accepted. Things broke up a bit soon after. Dui cooked me some Okonomiyaki and Korokke, yum! We took the kitten back to the den to give her the kittens tour, well more Dui did and I tagged along. In the end she decided to go to sleep so I gave her a blanket to keep her warm. Soon after I headed to my own bed for the night.

The next day was interesting... To say the least. My day would end with Disco's funeral, but the chaos started when Mari was caught on the den roof again by Reiyn who made a big fuss over it. Most of us don't want to get involved in it, but he stuck to Rith's rule hard and fast. Then Rith herself arrived and the gathering of kitties was about to watch a furball as Rith took action on Mari... Until Sarika got shot.

It was a sniper on a roof up above. Most of the kitties besides myself and Rith took cover. Fra went to Sarika's side to try to stop the bleeding as did Dui, though not the bleeding part. Dui and Sarika are lovers, so it was hard on Dui. Sadly My first day in the walkers I had to patch Dui up in similar circumstances...

Anyways... Beatriz, Mari, and Reiyn went into action hunting the sniper with Rith going up alogn the other side of buildings to hunt him. I decided to stay and see if I could help Sarika, but Fra had it under control so I decided to guard the door instead. The sniper suicided, but he was a strange one....

Rith did have it out with Mari after that. I decided to head to Disco's funeral during it however... I stayed silent through most of it, but I just felt to guilty about her death to say anything. I also stood next to this tree which a 'thing' was up in... It smelled of burnt flesh and dripped, or rather oozed, blood and other fluids which caused me to spend alot of my none sulking time trying not to gag. It caused some fuss at the end of the funeral, but I was to tired and depressed to stay and watch.
(More to come as it was a week full of events)

Midian Files: The Return

Yes, two installments in one week! This is more actual goings on in Midian rather than back story.

Getting back to Midian was hard, but nothing like the challenge of actually reconnecting once I was back.

It didn't help to learn the bits of news I heard on my return... My favorite kitten Myca was dead, as was Sadira and Myca's mate Landen. Some form of triple homicide/suicide. It makes me a sad kitty as I miss them. The catwalkers seem torn over the whole thing to, most don't even show up to the den anymore, it feels like a ghost town.

Mari was also kicked out of the walkers for events I am not aware of, maybe it was the final straw after her shooting of an ex-kitten...? Oddly she hangs around the den which is what she killed the other kitten for after he left. I haven't really forgiven her for that yet, so maybe I'm just projecting though. Rith's ways are often mysterious, but then so are those of most leaders.

I've also learned my favorite bar the Twilight Zone was shot up and now sits almost always empty. Reconstruction apparently not high on the list of priorities. It seems my old friend Cat was the one that shot the place up in a fight with some then TZ security woman.

On that note I also discovered that my old friend Cat was now head of the Mercs with my friend Craven as her second. Though Cat is out of town right now. I hope she's not in as much danger as I was... Things had become estranged between me and her before I left, but she's still a friend. Craven on the other hand... Seems he managed to find himself a mate! She's a pretty thing named Honey. Which is odd to me as I remember a certain kitten with that name, they are nothing alike though.

I even found Edna my favorite bartender, back in the days of Disco and Rej, now she runs a tattoo parlor. I also hear she got married! Everyone seems to be hooking up. Why can't I even get a date in Midian outside of Marie before she went crazy and got killed...? Anyways we had a nice long talk, it was nice that warm homey feeling...

However this is Midian something bad must always happen... In this case it's that Disco was later found dead after having committed suicide. After fighting so hard to live, I can't understand someone giving up. Sadly I had seen her walk by Edna's shop before it happened and I thought to go say 'hi', but I decided to wait til later... Only there is no later now. It leaves you to wonder 'What if?', maybe I could have stopped her from going through with it... Then again maybe not. And we will never know.

My friend Markko is the one that found her and it seems they had become very close friends before this. I'll try to cheer him up a bit... He's had his own troubles lately.... I hear he was kicked out of his faction for um... 'indiscretion' in certain 'activities'.

It's been one week now since I've been back and I've missed so much. But I should be asleep, I'll write more later.

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Meme Game Round 2

Well it seems Chloe has chosen me to play this latest round of the meme game, so let's see here...

The Rules:

(1) Each player starts with answering the questions about themselves.
(2) People who are tagged need to write a post on their own blog (answering same questions) and post these rules.
(3) At the end of your blog, you need to choose five people to get tagged and list their names.
(4) Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.

The Questions and answers:

1. Are you and early shopper or a late shopper?
I shop all the time... So I get bits here and there whenever I found something that fits a person... Except in Sl where I already made my hand crafted gifties for people and started passing them out... ^_-

2. What is your favorite cartoon (current or past)?
I can't count anime as cartoons (because it feels kind of insulting to compare them to US cartoons), so instead I'll pick a Hybred: Robotech. Yes I admit I'm a fan of giant robot/fighter planes battling aliens... It's also the only 'cartoon' I can remember where a major character dies on screen by bleeding to death after arriving at his girlfriends apartment to see her one last time.... *wipes tear* I still love that scene...

3. On a scale of 1-10, how competent are you on home repair projects?

I'm a 5. I can use a hammer, screw drivers, and even basic power tools like saws and such... I can also read directions... Just don't expect me to make to many straight lines... ^_-

4. What is your favorite holiday tradition?

It may sound bad, but I don't really have any... My parents were always big on putting up a tree and the whole decorating thing, but I never enjoyed it and that was there tradition... When I was little though I did have a tradition of waking up at 4 am in the morning to find the presents on Christmas day.... The next four hours would then be attempts to wake them up as I was not allowed to open presents without them...

5. Describe your favorite kiss? Do you give it or receive it?

I have to agree with Hawksrocks on this one (as seen here). Passionate, lustful, and loving kisses all the way!

I'm going to tag only one person at the moment: London Spengler. I know she's not on much right now, but she deserves to play to... So when your back dear, take a moment to post! ;)

Monday, December 10, 2007

Fashion Post: Sand Dollar

Well I know it's been like forever and a day since the last time I actually blogged about fashion... And god knows I'm not always looking for cute... But I found this adorable pair of undies from Sand Dollar by reading my friend London's blog. So it was time to drive everyone nuts by posting three new posts in a day and adding fashion to the plate... If you haven't read my other posts today read from the bottom of the page to the top!

Sand Dollar Fruits Basket Lingerie Set:















I bought this in cherry and you probably can't see much of the pattern in this picture, but it's literally covered in cherry patterns in places. Each one having been apparently hand drawn. I love cherries (among other favorite red fruits) and so they look delicious to me...

Better than that they are covered in little prim ribbons! Those would be the bits of red on the front of the panties in the picture, but there are more ribbons in other places you can't see in this pic.

It also includes the stockings I'm wearing besides the bra and panties making it complete. As you can see from the picture I had to grab my Christmas Holiday Rufus from Deviant Kitties and snuggle into my new bed after putting it on!

Now before I decide I must curl up in my bed and not do anything else today, I'll end this post suggesting that if you want to buy some adorable lingerie you should go find the Sand Dollar shop at Pandora's Place!

Midian FIles: The Missing Tail

What follows is a dark post on what happened to Shadey while I was away from both Midian and from SL due to work. I can add pics if demanded, but I'm betting most while be thankful near the end I didn't.

It was a dark day when I decided to set out on this crazy plan... I'd been hunting for some trace of my sibs and failing and having run out of other options I decided on a radical course of action: Let the hunters catch me. It made sense, if these self same hunters had hunted them or worked with those that did I could have hopes of finding them. That was the dream and that was the plan... The results however were different...

They knocked me out, tied me up, beat me whenever I complained and sometimes just for waking up. That however would prove the least of my hardships...

I was loaded onto a plane and sent somewhere I didn't recognize. The destination though I later learned was a secret military base and research facility deep in the wilds of Africa or at least what was once called Africa. Here was to be my home for my captivity. A stay that was expected by them to be short and by me to be short, but for very different reasons.

The shining light of the whole thing was being reunited with all my sibs in one place. Well those that hadn't died yet from what the scientists were doing to us. But it was a bitter moment as some were no longer even lucid enough to recognize me...

These scientists were much like those that decided to re-engineer us to be better warriors, but while those had purpose these only held madness. They sought the limits of flesh and genes. Not with a specific goal, but just to watch how far a person could be twisted and yet live. Each was made into ghastly horrors best left unnamed, succumbing to the madness of being altered while alive and conscious... Then they tested... 'This one is now resistant to disease, let us invoke as many plagues into it as we can to see how durable it is.' And then the rest of us would be forced to watch as they sprayed, injected, inseminated, and otherwise victimized our much abused sib until their was nothing left to keep her body working as they had found the limit. What grizzly cold blooded things humans can be!

After being forced to watch my sibs put through this routine far more times than I want to remember... It was my turn. Oh the pain! I can't begin to describe it... Your blood boils, your muscles spasm, your skin burns, your flesh crawls, and your bones ache. All my pain tolerance and martial arts meditative skills amounted to nothing in the face of it. In the end all that saved me was my will to live, to live and overcome!

I don't know when I came to, but the scientists seemed so pleased by the results... Oh all of my sibs only I stayed in the same physical form after their experiments. My body had not broken or bent, but been tempered... It however was not the same is it had been. I noticed this quickly as the fire inside that had thirsted for blood and needed to be chained was missing... Their was still a fire, but it filled me and warmed me rather than driving me to rage and violence. I had yet to learn what this meant however. Neither did they.

When the scientists came for me again I tried to escape, not wanting to be tested and was cut by one of the soldiers kept on hand to 'tame' us. But unlike normal I didn't bleed. A few flicks of blood came loose, but the wound sealed itself as it was made and nothing further came of it. The scientist were ecstatic wanting to see how I did it. They got their wish as the guards subdued me with difficulty.

Each time I was wounded I didn't bleed out like any other creature and the wounds would heal quickly. I learned new levels of pain as they started small and scaled up their tests trying new ways and inflicting more damage to me. Cuts healed in seconds, burns healed almost as quick, acid was nullified and then the wounds would repair themselves. They moved on. Fingers were hacked off and regrew in minutes. The missing digit would decompose while they watched. Toes were burnt off and were rebuilt.

Their time of reckoning however was at hand. They had decided to shop off an arm and see what would happen. They however had to have me shackled and chained to keep from tearing them apart and to keep me on their blood covered table. They hacked off my arm, but they spent to much time watching my previous limb decompose as the new one grew... A new arm unshackled and unchained.... The first one died quick, as did the second, the third lived awhile as he tried to run... Breaking free of my bounds was nothing, after all my body regrew itself and the pain it took to free myself was as nothing compared to being remade. Within an hour I was free.

I checked on my sibs to find they had all perished while I was there plaything. May whatever lives on after have piece denied us in life. I had a mission though. My emotions would not be quenched and my mind could not be at ease while this place existed. things would be paid for and it would be in blood.

By the time it was done I had learned the limits to my new regeneration. I was shot... and shot alot.... swiss cheese would have had less holes. I was shot in the head a few times, but that didn't kill me... I blacked out for an hour or two though... I was burnt. I was cooked with a variety of energy weapons. I was even hit with a anti-material rifle like I favor in combat. Normally that would kill anything alive, but it only knocked me out again.

But they died and I lived. To finish the deed I rounded up all the explosives in the base. It was a pretty fire as the plum of scorched bits blasted into the sky. Ashes to ashes and all that.

I turned now though to the future. I had lost my family, but I had one thing left to me. I had people who cared about me and I should have relied in more. Should have told of my crazy plan in the first place. I had friends who may not be able to replace what I'd lost, but would help me forge on. I had friends... In Midian.

New House in SL

Well I got talked into renting a condo apartment in SL, which I wasn't really unwilling to buy in the first place... If you remember way back when I had a house in the clouds on some group land some time back, but have otherwise been a homeless kitten... Now I have a house again... It's not much to look at from the outside, but it looks very nice inside after 2 days of decorating intensive care!

The best part however is the view...
Now that is something I'd love to see every day in RL!

Being on the beach also means having other fun to like:
This...














Or This...














A kitten needs to play some to! All work and no play makes a very bored kitty...

Friday, December 7, 2007

New Look

As you may be able to guess... I love changing my look, at least in SL, and I always see it as a work in progress... Well I decided I needed an update, so I went shopping... And what you see below is the result:

Some things that will never change in SL (Or at least I doubt they will): I will always be a red haired neko... I do occasionally get the urge to go purple and match a certain friend of mine in SL who is fairly famous, but I'm more a red person...

So... I tweaked my shape.... In fact it's hard to tell, but Shadey now has some fat... I updated my curves as it were, though as another things I don't plan to change I didn't touch my bust... I tweaked my legs so I'm a tad shorter (I used to tower over half of all my neko friends, no idea now). I also changed my nose... My nose always looked to big for my face up close in SL...

I went and bought a Tete a Pied skin (feline in buff type 3 makeup)... And I bought some snazzy business casual clothes from DE Designs... They are about the only thing I own that don't look odd to wear in the middle of winter... It really shows off my lavender kitty eyes.

Which is important when Midian is a winter wonderland... buried in ice and snow... Only thing it's missing is an iceberg in the harbor...

Well sleepy time now... More later...

Thursday, December 6, 2007

8 Things...

Well I'm guessing most of you know abotu the whole 8 things meme floating around the SL blogsphere... Well Timothy pseudo-tagged me, so I guess I should give my 8 things... Though since I can't think of anyone who hasn't been tagged yet I won't pass it on unless I find some victims... ;)

1. One of my hobbies is Photography... Though I've always been a digital person, so my camera of choice right now is my Fujifilm S5700 in RL. Which is probably related to why I like pics in SL...

2. I run an Anime/Manga/J-Pop club in RL and that's where I am for about 4 hours every Saturday unless I feel to sick or lazy to go...

3. I'm allergic to certain foods... Including Onions, Peppers, and Mushrooms... Now you try finding foods without those from say... Everyone likes to hide their inclusion because people don't think someone may not be able to eat them... (On that note my family is full of strange food allergies, my mom can't eat grains and my dad can't eat nuts).

4. I'm an only child. Which for where I live is odd. It however didn't mean I was spoiled... In fact it usually meant my parents went out of their way to make me fight for whatever I got out of them. Mostly because we were not quite middle class, in fact their attempts to act like they were a middle class family ended with them file for bankruptcy during my first time through college...

5. I've been in college twice... & Owe $60,000 USD for the 'honor' of doing that...

6. I teach an 'enrichment' class at the school I work for called 'Computer Imaging' and I have to try manage up to 16 kids from 4th to 8th grades... Who would rather spend most of their time playing flash games where they dissect people or find creative suicide methods in office buildings... 0_o

7. I am not a red head in RL... Nor have I ever bothered to color my hair... In fact in RL I started with hair so blonde it was nearly white, but now it's just a kind of brown with natural blonde highlights... Unfortunately not where I want them and that fade to be unnoticeable by the end of a day...

8. I originally intended to be a writer and when I told my 7th grade teacher that she chose to make me hate english classes and 'traditional literature' for the rest of my life... I still however write Science Fiction, I just refuse to follow any of the 'styles' your taught to write in and do what I want...

& that's 8... ;)

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

Cleaning up the dust and cobwebs

Hey everyone!

I've actually stopped into SL a few times lately for the first time in awhile, but I haven't posted on here... Things feel so different when I've gone back to my usual haunts. It makes me kinda sad...

I have missed my SL friends though... Often quite alot during the ups and downs of RL. In the time since I got back together with the woman I love only to have her dump me in just over a week of being back together for a stupid guy... >_> Now they have broken up... I still haven't meet anyone else... I guess the world just doesn't appreciate introverts...

Work is still driving me nuts, but at the moment I have an intern so it somewhat lightens my load... At least until the end of the day, then I'm still the one getting called at home at all sorts of crazy hours... Oh and to make things more fun this week has started the annual snowfall here along the great lakes... Making my drive to and from work take longer.... Yeah... <_<

Back to SL... Of course the first thing I did was buy more clothes.... Lots of clothes... Like everything new from Dark Eden to start.. ^_^

I also built a new PC (Yeah for my geek girlness!)... Which laughs at SL and asks "Can't you make me work harder...?" as I've cranked up all the settings as high as they go and SL never freezes or slows like it used to... I do however still have to wait on SL's slow transfer rate and watch as the scenery and people pop into existence, but their is no helping that... My pictures should look better from now on to...

Well that's all for now I'll try to come up with some new posts over the christmas break at work if not before!

Thursday, August 30, 2007

Work interfering with life

Well for the last couple weeks work has ben interfering with me having a life, yet alone a second life... I spend all sorts of time at work and then I'm so tired when I get home at night I just want to eat dinner and go to bed...

So for the time being the blog is on hold (as you probably ahve already noticed). So is my existance in SL... I hope things work out at work and I can lighten my load soon... Cross your fingers for me!

Saturday, August 18, 2007

Midian Files Episode 3

First a few notes... I have the pictures done finally for my swimsuit review... In fact they've been done for 3 days now... I just need to find time to do the review posts (probably 2 as their are dozens of swimsuits). Edit: Which didn't happen, but you can see them on my flickr page.

Now to Midian for part 3 people have been asking me for since I didn't get a chance to post this week:

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Well this week hasn't been as interesting as last. Ok, maybe that's not quite correct. I did have one good night in the TZ... Which has become my usual haunt were I drink later as I still don't know what these drinks are...

Edit: And this is where it ended, I never finished this post, but since I started on Midian Files #4 I decided to at least post this much... Things are rather fuzzy for me as to what happened which week/month/etc that far back now (5 or 6 months ago), so I can't finish it now... Sorry!

Wednesday, August 8, 2007

Midian Files Episode 2

Week 2 has been a tad more interesting I found a place called the "Twilight Zone" look the old TV series, or 'TZ' for short. I've never been around alcohol as it was forbidden to us, but They don't seem to mind I just drink bottles of water. I did however meet this cute neko there, kind of raccoon looking facial markings which make her very unique looking. Seems she works as a dancer there, and sometimes bar tender, and her name is Rejeanne. It's to bad she seems to be involved with this cute human woman that handles security...

I also meet two other women: Catrin and Rin. Catrin is a very sexy human woman who seems awfully nice. Rin seems a bit quiet and her clothes are a bit weird, but she's cute and nice to. They introduced me to a friend of theirs this guy named Markko, who has a weird past were he was raised by nekos. I uh... I... Well I kind of got a bit kinky as they ended up going down in the subway station and started making out in a non-functional subway car... It _had_ been six months since this cute little kitten had done much of anything, so I joined in...

I also wandered the rooftops this week hoping to spot some of these nekos from the city, the 'catwalkers'. In the end I did find some as I ended up on the roof of one of the buildings in town and I sat high up on this ledge as I surveyed the city.... Until I was assaulted with rocks from below and lost my grip avoiding them... To land almost on top of this cute purple/pink haired neko girl.... Who was talking with this older male neko. They told me I was in their 'den' and that I had to leave. I tried apologizing, but they were rather annoyed, so I hopped down to the side and listened. Seemed the girl had been attacked recently, so she was not in such a good mood...

I ended up coming back to sit on the top of this warehouse across from the church. I had tried scaling the church to use as a hide out, but a very strange girl who looked like she hadn't bathed in weeks confronted me and told me I couldn't be there either... She didn't make much sense really, but I did understand that much. Anyways on top of the warehouse roof the cute neko girl from the 'den' dropped in and told me I couldn't be up there either... :(

She did however offer to show me a good place to stay... So I followed her and she lead me down by the beach. I also got her name which was Myca.

Wednesday, August 1, 2007

Midian Files Episode 1

Well here is the first installment of my Midian Diary of sorts... It will be told from the point of view of the character I play in Midian.

In Midian 'Shadow' or 'Shadey' is what everyone knows me as and there she's a neko who has a sort of tragic past involving the loss of her family who were part of a military project. She's been a soldier all her life (literally raised into it). And when the project was canceled the military tried to erase them all. She has no idea what happened to them, but she decided to head to Midian in hopes they would arrive there as well as a haven for those with things to hide...

Week 1:

Well I managed to get a ride into Midian and they dropped me off at the taxi hub. It wasn't easy getting here, especially and still have some cash on hand.... Good thing I have that spec ops bank account to draw on, I should be able to pull out money in small pieces from it for quite some time.

Midian is a strange place.... Enough spooky emo kids/adults with pale skin to start a town of there own... Plenty of humans walking around with guns... Which reminds em I need to replace my weapons... I hadn't having to leave them behind. Some incredibly freaky people and frankly I have no clue where to start my search for my sibs... It's been six months now, I wonder if they are even still alive...?

I found an interesting collection of people by this canal after I finished wondering over town and found a spot to secure my gear way up on a roof to one of the taller buildings. This group had not one, but four nekos in it and a human... The human was the most normal looking I'd seen in my time spent in Midian so far. While I may want to meet up with the nekos to see if they know anything about my missing family... Four at once is a bit much.... Luckily the nekos all left eventually and I went to talk to the normal looking man. He mentioned to me that their was two factions of nekos in the city: the Catwalkers and the Pack. He then suggested I set out wandering the wastelands til I found them... The wastelands is mostly dead remains of buildings... I should know since that's where I did go afterwards. Never found anything or any of these members of the 'Pack', but that's ok he still gave me useful info... Oh his name was... Jack... I think...?

Monday, July 30, 2007

Updates & Where I come from (online)

Yes, I've been neglecting this spot... And I really shouldn't... I do have yet more tats and bikinis ready... for whenever I get around to taking some new pictures to use... ^_^ Those will be my next fashion posts... I also have some stuff from Glass Earth's various members and a trip to Dark Eden and SiniStyle added some more items... If it didn't take like 4 hours for one of my fashion reports I'd do more... ^_^

All that said London asked me to share my online history when I mentioned it on her blog the other day that I've been online for ages (in internet time). See I was a lonely girl who had just moved from a tiny little town (200-300 people) to a somewhat larger town (3000-5000 people). I was shy and didn't make friends easily and really I was super innocent compared to the troubled lives of some of my class mates. Somethings I've come to realize since I started working at a charter school in the 'inner city' of a large city (300k+ people) is that small towns in the middle of nowhere have the same issues as inner city areas. Poverty, unemployment, lack of motivation in learning, lack of access to facilities to help you learn, and I could go on but it's not the focus of this post...

Anyways the school had a Apple IIC lab that as a fifth grader I visited once a week... And I loved them... They didn't tease me, or make fun of me, and were always happy to do whatever I could tell them to do... Oh sure they had their limits, but I could enjoy myself in ways vaguely like interacting with people without the downsides I felt around them... This discovery went on to firmly plant me into a 'geek' role for the rest of my life, but my love of various scientific topics would probably have done that anyways...

Middle School however lacked a computer lab and in another twist of fate my parents one summer asked me a question: "We want to buy something for all of us to use, so here are the options which would you prefer: a pool or a computer?" A computer, duh! I may have loved to swim, but swimming by yourself isn't much fun... and I was content with PC's as fun... This also set up my love of PC games...

The internet though as we know it didn't exist yet. There were a few different types of services though... AOL was still in it's infancy and not the ASL paradise it is now, Compuserve was around... Though neither was a an 'ISP' as those didn't exist yet, other nitch providers like Genie existed. It was also the era of BBS's, but their were no local BBS's for me and I managed to get in some serious trouble after discovering them with a huge $500 phone bill for my parents... Luckily the phone company decided it was an error... I also remember also figuring out ways around AOL's adult materials filter... I was a horny little 14 year old cause I most assuredly was not even kissing anyone yet and had not a clue about sexuality... But I knew I liked the idea of seeing people naked... Maybe I could even find one of people having sex! (shock!). Well I didn't find any sex pictures (so some of those questions wouldn't be answered for years), but I did find a picture of this beautiful naked asian woman... Which I think is what started my fetish for asian women... ^_^ I also got addicted to erotic stories in that time.. giving me all sorts of creative ideas if I'd had anyone to share them with! ^_-

By the second half of high school though the internet had been born! It's birth had been painful though as dial-up internet sucks (I can't believe people can stand to use it still, I so feel sorry for you Chloe!). But we had the beginning of the internet filled with as much junk as today... Just with less porn... We could even still use bitmap images on the web in html 1.0, as jpeg hadn't been fleshed out yet and gif was the only compressed image format available as an alternative to it.

After high school and on to college I finally got my first real ISP and I discovered chat rooms via IRC... I also discovered what I'd found gaming back on genie... Women and girls were a minority... suggesting you were a woman made the men scurry for cover or hit on you... The attention sometimes was way to bad... 20 or 30 guys to each woman... Ugh... So I hid... I played at being a guy online... I think alot of women did when they found out the same thing I had... I then found BBS's and more importantly MUD's, MUX's, MUCKS and all the other MU*'s, virtual worlds where you could create objects, interact with other people, make things... But it was all in text... I'd had an exposure to virtual sex with IRC and after wading into various MU*'s I discovered adult ones... Ones for people to live out virtual fantasies... The first I visited made me understand BDSM and most of it's concepts and flavors... As it was a master/slave world... you had to pick a role between the two and they required you to be 'trained' before being 'sold' to an owner... I moved on to another MU* that was more a general free for all of sexual ideas soon after....

I then spent the next 5 years playing off and on in those worlds between other things... In the end though I got tired of the drama and feeling like an outsider as I didn't 'live the life' in the Real World... I did however meet the first person I ever kissed or had sex with RL online during this time... Though that was one day... And she was a crazy nymphomaniac... I won't delve into that unless someone asks, but all she wanted was a one time thing and that ended up hurting me... As it was my first time...

I however took a vacation from virtual sex... I didn't enjoy it nearly as much one a forum or some such and even IM was hard... I did however have a best friend who I only knew online from the MU*'s that I'd still play with occasionally until I lost her contact info... It's been nearly 4 years now since I last talked to her... I've been in and out of virtual worlds before this point... All sorts of beta testing of online games... But those really were just games... I even saw the beginning of Second Life... But I tried it for a day back in it's early days and the need to create everything you wanted held me back from joining in... I didn't want to have to create clothes so I'm not ugly, or build all the objects in the world I wanted to interact with... Not then at least... Not until a few months ago when I was between things to do online and saw another mention of Second Life... And decided to give it another look in the five years it's been since the first look I'd given it... Second Life has that adult presence that bored me with MMO's... Well that and being stuck in 'set' articles of clothing as you leveled... I always felt I looked like everyone else and hated it... Not so in SL as I pour way to much money into looking different all the time...! ^_-

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Love & Sex (In & Out) of SL

I've been meaning to write a post for days... In fact I have one half done that has been sitting in my drafts folder for at least a week now. I've just been trying not to think about certain things, so I've been obsessing over things I can do that don't have to involve thinking about what I'm trying to avoid thinking of. But I'm throwing that out the window to make a post, because I have been thinking about it.

Well Since London, Katrina, & Sophosyne spend so much time talking about it and it's been on my mind lately for RL reasons... I decided to post my own take on Love & Sex (in and out of SL).

I'm different from those three in that I have trouble loving people... People fall into three categories with me: general public, friends, loves.

General Public are the teeming masses (some of which probably read this blog! ^_^ ) which are anyone I don't really know or only know a bit. I'm not likely to IM you in world and under the big blue sky I will probably only deal with you if you live nearby or work somewhere that I visit regularly... And unfortunately I will probably forever forget your name... I'm horrible with names...

Friends are people I care about. Alot of which I may not even see anymore for one reason or another, but they are still important to me. Unfortunately the ones I haven't seen in years I remember, but can't remember their names all the time ;.; I told you I have a bad memory for names... Those I do see regularly don't have to worry... If I remember your name, then your a friend... I'll play (sexually at times) with friends and try to be there for them, but I would say I'm not really in love with them... There are limits to how close I'll get or even want to get... This can at times annoy those who are polyamorous around me... But it's just the way I am... Plenty of people in SL fall into this category and if I play with you sexually in SL and your not paying me for it... Your probably in this list... ;)

Loves.... Well their have only ever been two loves in my nigh thirty RL years... Both I hold dear to me and both have frustrated me to know end.... The first I couldn't take being around anymore, because she did not feel the same way about me and seeing her with others made me happy and tore me up all at the same time... So I had to walk away... I miss her alot though and I wish she'd kept in touch even if just by email... The other love of my life is the one currently driving me crazy... I waited almost six years for a chance to be with her....

Those I have loved are true loves... absolute loves... I'd die for them without thinking about it. I have and probably will give them every cent I have if they need it, no matter if I do to. And the love is unconditional. But I'm selfish... Those I love I want to love me, and only me... At least in the romantic & lustful way.

When I think about it, I see that I try to feel loved by being with my friends... But it's always a sort of filler for my desire to be loved by those few people I have loved... I'm not sure if that's good or bad... If that means I use others who I don't really love by possibly leading them on and suggesting they mean more to me then they do... But it is what it is and I don't think I could just stop doing that. Much like most people I don't want to be lonely... And I don't want to start humping trees because my sex drive is all crazy at times... I'd really hate to see what happens if I can't at least get a little online every week or so...

Which leads me into this: For me sex is something I do to feel loved... Usually at least as I have acted as an escort in SL (though few people are hiring me, visit Virgins & Vixens and give me some work!), which is very much not usually about feeling loved... It's more desiring pretty things and compensation for my time... But even then... I think I'd turn down some people, in fact I basically have before... I don't want 'sexual partners' that just sit there and go 'oohhh...', If ya can't turn me on then I'm not gonna get you off... My friends I don't worry so much about... Most are capable of at least keeping up... In fact my friends that get a chance to be with me sexually are the ones who I feel can keep up in a sexual experience... The same is true in RL as in SL... I don't take a friend as a brief sexual experience if I think they are boring... Of course if you have me as an RL friend, then I thought you were worth being around anyways... I however don't tend to sleep with my friends RL to often, in fact the only times I have is when I've 'dated' friends... Which is usually for no more than a month... Then I get bored and usually the other person gets hurt... I don't mean it to happen... I do care for them, but without that deep love I get bored of the feelings I get from someone I don't love to... That sounds so wrong, but it's the case... Online I can go months or years... One woman I meet online (back in my MUX days pre-3D graphics) and I considered her my best friend for years. We would often have virtual sex... Even via IM back when I used ICQ (which was one of the first IM clients before everyone wanted to create one). Online I seem to be able to be friends and have virtual sex with them and not cause issues... Unless the other person gets to greedy... Which is a whole different topic...

But I think this explains my take on love and sex and I feel like I've been talking for hours (probably because I've spent nearly two hours typing this. So I love it at this for now.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Poetry, Lonely Hearts: Between

& Now for the one I wrote today, which to me sums up how I've felt since Sunday when she told me again we needed time apart... She's been hinting at that for months, but silly me I've been trying to support her through the hard times... But she just wants to distance herself from everyone, saying she needs 'space' and wants 'freedom'... To bad for me, my feelings just can't be turned off like a switch... Yesterday she told me during my lunch at work that if I couldn't be happy she didn't want to see me... And she didn't seem to understand she is the only thing that's ever really made me happy... Making a fairly self defeating situation... Anyways...

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Between


You are the flame that has kept the darkness in my soul away
Before you all I knew was loneliness, pain, bitterness, and anger

The loneliness consumed me drawing me into despair
The Pain made it hurt to touch anyone
The Bitterness kept me from succeeding
The Anger made me want to hurt everyone

You are the heat that warmed the cold places of my heart
You are the light that pushed back the darkness in my soul

I was with you and I was lonely no more
I was with you and that made the pain fade
I was with you and the bitterness no longer held me back
I was with you and the anger let me leash it

But now you want to be alone, Independent you say
Your my flame and it is going out

My loneliness returns, making me want you all the more
My Pain blooms, making it hurt not to touch you
My Bitterness awakens, and I no longer find a reason to be more
My Anger consumes, and I want to hurt everyone except you

But all I seem to do is hurt you now
And that is the last thing I want

I'm in between and feel so lost...
Where has my light gone again...?

Poetry, Lonely Hearts, Prefect for Me

Perfect For Me

I think you are perfect for me
After all the time I’ve spent with you
Longing kicks in and I start to see
The edge of the bed
Where you should be
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remember
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You are perfect for me

While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures I took
That you were looking for
If there's one memory I don't want to lose
That time at the mall
You and me in the picture booth
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remember
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You are perfect for me

The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I could hold you
And I can't pretend... I won't think about you when I'm older
Cause we should never really have to
This isn’t the end
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You are perfect for me
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You are perfect for me
(And I think you should know this)

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This may sounds familiar and you'd be right... My girl told me she thought the Hinder song 'You can do much better than me' was so apt, as she always has considered herself somehow less than me... Well It spurred me to rewrite the lyrics to something I felt was more fitting...

Poetry, Lonely Hearts, Always

Always

If I said the wrong thing would you leave me?
Though my fingers may break,
I just can't let you go.

I will always love you,
I love you and I need you.
Till my heart stops beating,
I'll never lose this feeling

Though I'm not your best friend,
I'd do anything to keep you with me.
So close your eyes and hold on tight, spin around its alright.
Don't you see my plans will always have you in them?

I will always love you,
I love you and I need you.
Till my heart stops beating,
I'll never lose this feeling

Poetry, Lonely Hearts: My Love

My Love

My Love is Eternal
It has lasted for six years already
Without dimming or fading

My Love is Caring
I think of you first
And how I can make you happy

My Love is Romantic
My love inspires me to do things for you
To brighten your day and make you smile

My Love is Sexual
My love is also part of my desire for you
I need your touch and your kiss

My Love is Strong
My love gathers strength from you
And lets me do amazing things

My Love is for you and only you

Poetry, Lonely Hearts: My Angel

Well I'm about to make a crazy number of posts as I decided to post my poetry to my blog... Well I wanted to do the last poem I made up here and they are really a set, so I need to start from the beginning...


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My Angel

I gazed upon a sight
That took my breath away
An angel come to earth

When I look into your eyes
I believe there is a heaven
To match this hell

When every mans hand was raised against me
When every mans back was turned to me
You stretched out your hand to me

In that instant you became
The world to me
And for the first time I felt free

Free to love
Free to laugh
Free to be me

But I’m just a mortal
Human to the core
Faulty as any can be

Can it really be, that an angel wants to be with me?

Monday, July 16, 2007

RL sucks...

Well my RL has gone into the toilet again... so I haven't felt like posting up the things I have ready... Give me some more time... I do plan to do at least a couple more posts this week...Tattoos are up next, and maybe I can do some bathing suits to...

Also I'm contemplating doing something similar to Tober's Oh Hush! blog and doing a running account of my adventures in Midian on a week by week basis. Now if I do it I'm going to make them just a rundown of any major events that happen around me or to me and it would be roughly 1 week behind... What do you all think...?

Thursday, July 12, 2007

No update for you...

I had one more pic from the last set of pics I took which I was going to post up today... But I decided instead to wait a bit and post up some pics on tattoos... That's what the pic was of, but just having one tat review up seemed such a waste... Much like why I haven't done my swimsuit review yet... But I do have a number of tats, so I'll try to get some pics tonight and then I can have a host of pics for everyone to see tomorrow all with reviews!

See you then... ^_^

Edit:
Well I did take the pics, but then I realized I'd left my thumb drive at work last night and couldn't take them in... So you'll have to wait til Saturday morning.

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Shopping Spree Part 2

Well as promised here is part 2 of my shopping spree, lets see if I can finish this before I leave work today... ^_^

First is another design from Pixel Dolls. This one is called 'Bonney'. I just felt like adding the hat as the last design had given me a southern feel that just so required it. This as you can see consists of two parts: a corset and a skirt. The corset has some nice detailing and is a lacy design that fits nicely with almost anything. Not quite as good as the rose corset I got from PD, but that may just be my obsession with roses. The skirt is both a prim skirt and a cover up layer and is a nice frilly design as well. Both pieces look a lot like real lace which is wonderful for someone who likes lace.



Since I seem to have lost the picture of the third PD outfit, instead next up is 'Goth' by RPD. This outfit consists of a bunch of pieces. Blouse, Frilly shirt sleeves, Skirt, and socks. I love the 'laced' top look this blouse has and the red and black pieces look like they were designed into each other like a real blouse. The sleeves however are winners even if my hands do tend to go through them way to often. The skirt however is my least favorite part. It's just a normal skirt layer, which I usually like but as with most skirt layers it 'breaks' in the middle during certain positions. The knee high socks finish this off with cute red and black stripes. Even if I don't like the skirt much I do love this outfit...


This is from DE Designs and is called 'Vixen'. It's inspired by the outfit worn by Rayne in the game series called 'BloodRayne' about a half vampire girl who kills other vampires... It so happens I loved the two games of the series and I love the character Rayne, so when I saw this it became a 'must buy'. And boy what an outfit... To start with it includes: Gloves, Laced corset shirt, bra, jacket, 'skirt' to complete the jacket, panties, pants, and socks... No prim work, but OMG detailing texture work... The whole thing is just great... I'm just not sure what else to say, so maybe I'm a tad to much of a fan girl for this outfit... ^_^

Btw this pic also shows my new neko punk armband I picked up, However I don't remember the name of the shop... So if you know, let me know so I can credit them... While I know I could create the same thing, I love the neko-ness of it, so I wear it alot.


After that we also have another outfit from DE Designs called 'Wishmaster'. It is highly detailed just like Vixen and includes even more pieces to play with as it includes an alternate jacket and alternate pants (the second set being short shorts). Again this is a design I love... The straps/buckles on the jacket I used for this picture alone are enough to make me like it.. The boots (pants layer) though are a nice touch and go fairly well with my rose biker boots from shiny things once I remove the upper part of the boot. The detail again is amazing here and about the equal of the amazing detail in the design I bought from Infinity. Though in the end this was far cheaper than he infinity design, because this outfit came with much more.


The last design for today is actually a freebie from 22nd Century Yedo. Which isn't a store so much, but a club. However I love the silky transparencies of this designs skirt. It's actually two layers of transparent skirt material with a clothing layer skirt underneath. The top manages to fit into this chaos. If only I could get it in shades of red this would be stunning! The green just isn't my color. The ribbons in my hair come with it to, to make an even more flowing mess of loveliness. So even though it's a freebie it gets an honorable mention from me.



And your bonus pic today is another from the wishmaster outfit, enjoy!

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Shopping Spree

Like any other woman when I feel down I go shopping... And I've needed to update this with some new outfits anyways, so here are my finds for this outing:

One complete set from Gritty Kitty was my most recent purchase. The set seems to be called 'Harajuku Luv' for the modern Japanese style it resembles. It includes a smock, undies, that amazingly detailed skirt, and the leg warmers I'm wearing in the picture. It also has some additions you can purchase such as leggings and paired barrette + bangle combos. I love the detailing in this outfit and with so many layers to mix and match, I'm having way to much fun in the couple of hours I've played with it so far. However the skirt, as always, can be a pain to fit. It's very much a love/hate relationship with the skirt, as I love the design and the detail, but even I have problems fitting the darn thing making a 'pants' cover up layer needed, could we at least start making them a skirt layer...? The leg warmers are all sorts of cool as well with several versions to choose from in the same pack. The last thing I'm going to spent time on is the undies... These come in a single pack with (I believe) six styles and 4 pieces (pant or bottoms and bra or shirt) each for 24 items alone! Really great work, please Gritty Kitty make more womens clothes!


Next up is a close-up on some new items I grabbed from Curious Kitties. First up is that tiny speck on the left side of my nose, unfortunately these days SL doesn't seem to want to zoom all that close so I couldn't show it any better... But I am wearing a cute little blue nose stud gem. It was cheap and cute, so don't blame me, blame the cute! Then their is that lip ring I'm sporting. It's a tiny silver cat paw design which is just darling... And finally the cutest of the cute is that 'nekolace' as Curious Kitties styles it. It has a black kitten with a flexi tail on a red string with tiny little bells on it! It's just so cute I couldn't resist... Of course it looks far far better in person, so you'll have to go to the store yourself to buy it or find me in person.


Don't think I've covered this outfit before, it's Little Miss Gaisa. It's a geisha inspired design from Lil Nekos (which is related to LVS). This is heavy on the prim extras with bows (2 arm bows & 1 back bow), a pair of hair sticks, and ruffles for the socks. It's also got that wonderful frilly skirt. All in a red and black design with some fairly good detailing you can see in the right light. This shot however was a sunset pick from my SL house, but I think it looks good for the blog to even if it seems a bit small. I love this for when I want to be all goth loli or just wear something fairly old fashioned and cute.



The last design for right now is Matalin from Pixel Dolls, this came out a bit ago... But I ran out of cash and wanted to do all three outfits at the same time. Well I got tired of waiting so here is the first of the designs. This is also the first time I ever wore a hat in SL. It looks a bit off in this picture, but It makes me feel like some sort of cowgirl in SL. Which makes a bit of sense since Nephilaine was watching to much Firefly at the time... ;)

Anyways, This design uses a one sided half skirt with what looks almost like a one piece below it as the bottoms match into the shirt. The shirt itself is a wonderful texture and an interesting design. The sleeves are sculptie ruffles with lace. The hat is also from Pixel Dolls and is one of her sculptie designs, it's just called 'curved brim hat' in my inventory. I've worn this design several times though and I love it.


Amazingly it took me from 7 am at work til 4 pm to write just this much because they've been keeping me jumping... So more for you tomorrow, but first a bonus pic of me in my lovely new Harajuku outfit (this time with the bra top), enjoy! ^_^

Saturday, July 7, 2007

Well titles aren't working today, so this gets to be title-less... But I felt like commenting on SL & RL...

SL has been something of a crazy thing lately for me... I left working at Castle Hornet, for reasons I don't really want to go into. I like everyone there I really do, but I needed a break from certain things there. So I took a job at the Perfumed Garden. Which also has a great bunch of gals working at it. Things however did not go as planned, after a week I'd made a whole $300L (in roughly 15 hours of working there), that's $20L an hour... I can almost beat that with crappy camping chairs... So I needed a change.... again... Clothes are expensive in SL as in RL, maybe not as expensive... but when you consider that you don't 'own' anything when you buy clothes in SL... It becomes a very expensive thing... So I've started working at a new club called 'Virgins and Vixens' while spending my stressed out nights in Midian trying to get involved there on my 2 hours or so a night I can spend in SL on a non-weekend. Feel free to stop by my new place of work and hang out for awhile! (Just please remember to tip!)

RL has been even more stressful... I've mentioned her once before, but my girl (and the love of my life) has been going through a ton of stress this week. For starters I should mention she has 2 kids from two previous relationships... The father of her son (the older of her two kids) is suing for increased custody, or more accurately he's being pushed by his wife and his parents to sue for increased custody... Then the father of her second child has decided after pushing her away for years that he has been getting to little attention from her as if they were together... Tip to stupid guy #2, She doesn't want your sorry ass! But she's to nice to say that and she outright forbid me to say it... Cause she knows I would, with my foot up his ass... Added to this is another ex of hers who has shown up begging favors of her and both suggesting he wants her again and that he doesn't depending on day and time. This one is a bigger problem as she still has feelings for him. So he'll make a play on her emotions when he sees her (which is fairly often as his brother just so happens to be my girl's neighbor <_<>_> ), and begs cash for smokes, tattooes, or just plain food from her... Then turn around and sleep with another of my girl's neighbors (who caused a scene the other day sayin' how she was gonna have this guys baby)...

Maybe it's just my strong lesbian tendancies, but... WTF is wrong with some women..? This guys a big giant capitol L loser... He's been to jail for possession of illegal substances, he isn't all that great lookin', and he acts like he's still 10 years old... No wait that was a disservice to 10 year olds... Why in hell would you want to be with him...?

Sigh... But getting back to the point... All this has driven her up a wall and into deciding that she can't take all this stress and so many people that all want her attention and time... And instead of telling them to take a hike, she tells me that she wants to 'take a break from us'... So sadly I'm not the happiest kitten around right now... But I have things to do today, I'll post more later...

Thursday, July 5, 2007

Finally an update!

To start off with today I'll do some items from HAD (Hollow Angel Designs):

This first one is a 'silk' design called 'Aire Elements', which is part of a set of element designs they offer. This one is very nice with all sorts of lacy/frilly/bejeweled accents. Really otherwise my pictures speaks for itself. It does have some nice armbands with flexi-strands and you can buy a hair strand to go in it as well, with a matching textured hair band to keep it in place... The downside to that is it expects long hair... Which you'll notice I hardly ever wear... ^_^


Next is 'Elements Silk Fire', which is more of a tattoo of sorts than a set of silks or an outfit... and which comes with a very ugly skirt... Sorry, but that thing is rather ugly and you'll probably never see me wear it... It's also very non-flexi as it's a skirt layer... The fire textures are sweet though... If only it seemed more like 'clothes' than 'tattoos' I'd wear it allot more... It has a second top texture, so you can even very out the pattern to suit your taste... The one is a tad less PG on my skin as it has transparent areas right were my nips are...!


Up next is the 'Brocade Goth Gown'... Of which I have no idea why it's called a 'gown'... It's more a long coat over lingerie... Which isn't a bad thing at all, but... ^_^ Anyways... The long coat is a jacket and skirt layer pair, and has absolutely ugly texturing... The edges are all ratty and blocky and the texture itself is just not appealing... Makes me think I'm a homeless guy or something... Not what I want in my look... >_> The lingerie part though is cute and sexy... It just needs something over top of it unless your in the bedroom and it's not that ugly jacket...
So far I haven't found a good match, but I'm still looking!

This also shows off the boots a little which also came from HAD, They are fairly nice boots with metal buckles along the sides. They are a tad over-sized for my shape and height, but so are most boot designs in SL...


Now this next design is called 'Egyptian Silk', and does in fact conjure images of egypt in my head... But more egypt at war or egypt metal-crafting, than 'silk'. The top is a nicely detailed metal texture with good accents, which I actually like allot, and they do sell it separately (or something awfully close) . This does haven flexi-prim flowing white fabric armbands which is a nice touch... I love armbands... And the belt ties into the 'silken' skirt nicely, with a nice cotton like fabric texture on the skirt... You'll note I never actually say anything in this outfit is silk (I did tease by calling the skirt 'silken' in quotes though), So why exactly is it called 'Egyptian Silk' again...?


And now we have another design... Which they bill as a full body tattoo... Called 'Black Lace'. The funny thing is that this is basically a take on the fire design above done in black instead of the 'fire' tones that more easily tease you into believing it's a light colored skin tattoo... This is harder to believe as a 'tattoo' than as a very very skimpy lace outfit... Which is how I treat it... I do however love it as a super skimpy and sexy set of lingerie... It works great as that...


Next up is 'Girl Punk', which is a lovely 'cute punk' design. I'm not a big fan of pink, but this outfit uses pink the right way... To make it soften a otherwise 'hard' outfit that is dark in color scheme. This design also sports several skull and crossbones designs... In fact they are all over this outfit... I'm not exactly sure why a fairly 'pirate'-like image is plastered all over it, but that's ok... I love the detail work and the overall quality is high. The prim skirt does have a slight flaw (which you can probably see in the pic), but even that works pretty well. In fact the skirt is one of my more favorite pairings for prim skirts... Rather than using a 'pants' layer to fix issues between it and the main section of the outfit, it uses a skirt layer... Why do I prefer this? Mostly because it doesn't off any under layers like most of the skirt fixes that use pants do... So if you wanted you could wear this one with a set of 'stockings' that go from your feet to up under the skirt where it should... And not look weird.



'Pretty in Punk' is the next outfit. This is a bikini... sort of... I'm really nto sure how this is meant to be worn exactly... Is it meant to go under other clothes...? Or is it actually meant for the beach...? I do have a summer bikini review in the works, but I haven't gotten to far on it yet... Since I couldn't decide though, This will go up here and maybe show up later as well... ^_^ I do love the texturing, the pink and black do go fairly well together and it's just the sort of thing I love to take off... Er... Tease with, yes that's it! ^_^


Moving along we have another favorite of mine, 'Tied and Bound'. This is all straps and ties of various sorts over grey fabrics of different types, the bikini top is a shiny 'leather' texture, the corset is maybe a type of denim material, and the denim pants finish off the pieces. The detail is great, with good accents... I know I so wouldn't want to try to make it... The belt is a prim, but I could not get it to go just where I wanted it... Which was annoying. I think belts are hard to do as prims because like this one most tend to end up getting lodged in various parts of your body as you move... I did manage one good shot were it wasn't stuck in me somewhere though... ^_^

Also another good shot of those boots I mentioned earlier... They look really good with this outfit...

'Untamed' is the last design for this update (because I need to take more pictures). It's got a bikini top that is a red variant of the top from the last outfit, but the corset is of a different style... It also has a amazingly low riding thong... It's a good thing this girl shaves... ^_^ And last are the 'pants', these are actually chaps for pants without anything under them (normal chaps go over jeans). Which is good for in a 'I want to reveal as much SL flesh as possible' way... ;)

Oh and yes I am wearing those same boots again... But this time I tucked them under the chaps rather than wearing the pants tucked into the boots...

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

Odds & Ends

Yes, I'm really really far behind now... But I have a good excuse! ... Ok, Well I have an excuse anyways...

I've wanted to try my hand at building things since I seem fairly adept at editing shapes and such... So I ended up trying to create something interesting this last weekend... And I think I succeeded... I created an entire line of jewelry! More than 20 pieces in a weekend, because I went on a bit of a binge... Ok 'a bit' is way understating it...

I also decided to take a look into the role-play community on SL and went exploring the basics of the Midian Sim... You know me, I'm all dark and neko-ish, so It seems like a prime fit... However things have settled down at work & I figure I can actually work on my blog again from work... So expect some more updates soon!

Sunday, June 24, 2007

Catching up with KO Industries, Infinity, and Ravenwear

Well here are the first round of updates... I have more, I just have to wade through my older pictures and my inventory folders to double check what I haven't posted...

We'll start with this design called 'Cyber Dragon' from Infinity. Infinity is a small store that caters to a mostly demonic crowd and is in a post apocalyptic sim. And recently I've been on a cyberpunk kick so it felt like a good place to shop. Their designs are expensive though, this one cost $700L. The detail work though is incredible: the straps, the zippers, the flame designs, even the belt buckle are all highly detailed. It's done as two pieces a shirt and a pant layer. You'll need to add in your own shoes, I like using a pair of 'shoes' from a KO Industries design below. Is that high level of detail worth it...? I can't tell you... I've been debating that very thing since I bought it out of my own money...

Oh I should also note the hair which is new (well to my look in the blog at least), it's called 'Devo' and it's from Deviant Kitties which is another favorite when it comes to hair.


Next up is a design that launched last weekend at Ravenwear (& was offered to me by Ravenwear for review) , I also meant to post it last sunday and completely forgot... This design is called 'Trend'. I don't really like green, but I do love one thing about this dress: The skirt. It's one of the few prim skirts that needs no 'corrective underlayer'. It's simply a top, a pair of socks, and a prim skirt. The detail on the prim skirt and socks is also very nice. The top is a tad plain, but that's ok. It's all in the skirt with this one.


This next outfit is one I bought from Ravenwear while visiting I also bought a couple of pairs of shoes, but I didn't snap pictures of those right now... This is called 'Goth Control', and is part of a series that are all named 'control' and something else... I love the dog tag style goth labeling this has. It also shows a ton of cleavage which can be nice... that belt is also a nice addition to the pants, which also sports some straps.... And you know me and straps... Both pieces are made out of PVC or a shiny leather, it's hard to tell which. All in all a nice outfit when your heading out and about in a more goth or punk scene...


Now we've moved on to KO Industries, which is a small next to mew which is a interesting scripting store... They sell a interesting 4 legged neko AO there and I was stopping in to buy it when I turned the other way and ran into KO Industries cyberpunk/apocalyptic designs...

The first design is 'Speed Racer', which is an amazingly low cut and open front set of racing leathers. And when I say low, I mean low... As in if I had pubic hair you could see it low... It's a good thing I shave... Anyways... They are a nicely textured grey and red and except for the usual texture issues around my middle things are sweet all around...


To follow up that design is this design called "Racer X' , which as you can see takes the racing concept in different directions... Namely getting rid of the one piece style for a two piece style and this design uses far more layers then the other one. In fact in the picture I'm wearing: shoe, sock, pants, shirt, gloves, and jacket layers all at once. The only thing I don't like is that I can't choose a different color than yellow, for the main body of the shirt and the accents on the shoes, and the design of the shoes which makes the shoes part of the pants. The texturing is high quality on all the parts and I have chosen to wear pieces from this in other outfits, such as the gloves with Infinity's Cyber Dragon outfit.


'Native' is a favorite of mine, I in fact call it my 'hunting' outfit. It has multiple prim accessories: wooden bracers, wooden ankle braces, a shoulder guard, a ringed necklace, a weapon holster/backpack, and two Quiva (a type of weapon) which are even real and use the 'Safezone' combat system. I don't go seeking combat, but if you do this has an added plus for that... The non-prim part of the outfit is only three things: a set of panties, that halter-ish top, and the shoulder pad/backpack belt. The red tattoo is part of the panties with these. I love the detail and texturing on these... On top of all that if you want to modify this outfit you can! It's all modify/copy/no trans.


Lastly from KO Industries we have 'Savage Girl', just the perfect thing the next time you wander into a primitive barbarian sim... My favorite from this is the 'shoes', which are more a type of open-toed sock or foot wrap than shoes. I wear the shoes with Infinity's Cyber Dragon design in place of more traditional footwear. The clothing consists of a 'shirt' which only covers most of the upper half of your breasts and a 'skirt' which is barely there... ;) It also has a ton of prim accessories: Back 'mounted' spear, Usable Spear, knife in leg sheath, hip pouch, gauntlets with or without claws, and ankle braces. I like to wear this design with my 'full' neko skin from Jungle Voodoo for a wild look.

Well hopefully I'll do another update today, but that's it for now!

Friday, June 22, 2007

RL Stress & site news

Well my RL job has been driving me nuts all this week and stressing me out to no end. Hence the lack of updates, I've just been far far to busy to post at work and far far to tired when I get home...
You can however expect a few updates this weekend as I don't plan on going anywhere unless I have to... So I hope I get caught up...

Sunday, June 17, 2007

Canimal & Site News

Well I meet up with a old friend I haven't seen in about six months yesterday, so I didn't get a chance to do an update. So I will do it today... I also have some more news. **Hybrid**, Deviant Kitties, and Ravenwear all dropped off some items for me to review for you guys! **Hybrid** dropped off neko, kitsune, usagi, and mouse ears/tails and some neko skins. Deviant Kitties sent me a mix of shirts, pants, underwear, accessories, and hair. And Ravenwear sent me a brand new outfit just released today!

Now onto Canimal:


First up is 'stripes' a nice black and white striped dress. I had a bit of an issue with the default skirt size as you can see in the picture, that or it's meant to be an oddly shaped frill. I decided when I started (though I didn't mention it) to review stuff in as default a fashion as possible when it's a set like this is, so I didn't try to edit it for this picture. After all you guys should see that you may have to edit the skirt to fit right... I do like the dress outside the prim skirt issue.


Now we have a black dress called 'forever', now I also had issues with this skirt (I'm starting to wonder about Canimal Zephyr's waist size ^_^ ), but in all it doesn't look as bad because it's black and blends in better. In fact it's hard to notice in this picture. I love the top though with the slits. Nothing like teasing a guy (or gal!) by showing hints of cleavage. I also like the texture, it's almost like a leather in fact I've seen 'leather' textures that look way less like leather than this does.

Now we have a outfit that comes in 4 options: Black shirt, black shirt with skull design, White Shirt, White shirt with skull design. and a better striped mini than what 'stripes' had! Now this skirt actually did fit correctly without altering it. However I didn't like the match to the top... That's not to say I didn't like the top, because I love the texturing and detail of the top. I just don't like it with this skirt, but maybe you do and that's just fine! I will however wear both parts in other outfits...



Canimal also sent me 2 'payu payu' bikini sets, a 'cute punk' set and a 'poka dot' set. These I'm going to hold off on, as I'm hoping to get some more swimwear shortly... Then I'll have a big summer swimwear roundup... I will say I like the cute punk set though... I doubt I'm going to find to many punk swimsuits... Are punks not meant to like lounging in the pool...? I know my piercings aren't going to rust because I like the water... ^_^


I also want to round out my reviews of Last Call within my inventory... So...

This yummy studded leather set! I love this thing... It's got a nicely detailed jacket layer which is leather with studs in it and a built-in textured studded collar. Then we have a nice white studded front top that is a shirt layer. To finish it off we have these nice striped texture pants with their own belt. Once in awhile I'll be tempted to take out the white top to show some more skin (not that I'm not already in this outfit!), but otherwise I don't alter this in any way when I wear it... Which for me is rare...

Friday, June 15, 2007

Site News & Updates

Hello everyone!

I've gotten swamped at work the last couple of days so no shopping for me... I did however get a system in at work that can run SL... Though at a whole whoppin' 1.5 fps, so it's nearly useless... But I can at least check in on occasion and maybe sort through my inventory when I forget a name while I'm writing my reviews... So that should be an improvement.

I've also been looking at buying a house RL-wise because I'm way past tired of renting and roommates... So that's taken up some time over the last couple days as well. I'm awfully tempted to over spend when it comes to getting a house... I want a pool, A/C, jacuzzi bath, patio/deck, nice yard... Which is kinda bad... ^_^

Now onto fashion news... Canimal was nice enough to send me some things to review this morning before I left for work... So I'll be taking a look later tonight and should have a review up tomorrow or Sunday. I'm also working on that really really big Pixel Dolls finale with all the other bits I picked up from there. I'm hoping to finish that this weekend... I'm also trying to get in touch with more places about taking a look at some of their designs.

Well Now I should get back to my crazy day at work. Cya!

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Site News, Nocturnal Threads, and Mischief by RPD

Well I've lined up contacts with a few more places to review some of their designs. One of which I'll cover in this post (Nocturnal Threads), though I'm also talking with Canimal. This pretty kitty can't afford to buy out stores on her dancers budget! Well I could if you all come and tip me everyday, but I don't expect that! I also had the club owner at Castle Hornet take a few of us dancing girls out shopping and we ended up in Mischief (a Rising Phoenix Designs line). Where he gave us some $L and let us play... It was awfully nice of him. ^_^

Now for the clothes (Lingerie first!):

First up is (fill in the name here, yes, yes, I forgot it!) from Mischief. This design is hot... It's semi-sheer so it looks like your showing off all your assets, but you don't... I love that the top isn't just some sort of bra, but a wrap around section of fabric ala a tube top with nice red lace trim. The panties are more traditional in design, if not look, and duplicates the top for it's detailing and fabric. This also comes with the stockings to complete the look, though they aren't semi-sheer like the top and panties are. They do however have the same detailing.


Next up is (yep, forgot again!) from Mischief. This is awfully sexy with what looks like black velvet and with red and black lace. The top is a corset design which uses a jacket layer to add the lace corset fishnet part, so this can be converted to just a velvet bra look. The panties of course match the top and the red and black work deliciously together. Now this design has sheer black stockings with a red and black lace band along the top. In fact I was tempted to use those with the first outfit, but it didn't quite look right...


The last lingerie piece is this attractive number called (of course I forgot!). It's made of leather done to a shine to look like PVC with cut out slits under your bust and a zipper down the middle of the top! Who can resist showing off the underside of your breasts and zippers?! It comes with matching leather panties which look like they have a zipper on the front, but when you look closely it's more of a metal design rather than an actual zipper... I was kinda disappointed in that... I mean zippers are handy... Anyways... the extra for this set is the wrist cuffs made with the same styling as the rest of the outfit. It did not come with stocking, I just decided to keep wearing the ones from the previous design because they were nice and this design didn't come with any...

Now for something a bit different we have a 'club' outfit from Mischief called "Call of the Wild". Oh and what a call it makes! I just had to toss my spots back on for this one... It has a leopard spotted fabric under-layer for the top with a 'bra' type design in black over top of it, which is just all animal sexy... It comes with leopard spotted panties to, which are hard to see as a separate item in the picture because they are meant to stick out from the low cut black pants, which has it's own sexy leopard spotted trim. My only wish is that I could have the pattern texture match my red and black neko colors... That would look incredible on me...


Now onto some Nocturnal Threads Loving! Since I wondered into the Nocturnal Threads store I've loved their stuff... But I always seem to run out of cash before I manage to buy much of anything from their store... Such is the life of a neko clotheswhore... Well Kaia was nice enough to solve this problem for me by tossing a few outfits my way! She also included a few men's outfits, so I had the owner of Castle Hornet do a bit of modeling for me! Show Louis some love for lending a hand. ^_^

First up is a sexy design called 'RAWR' if I remember correctly. I love the concept and this comes with several parts to play with. Black leather textured gloves that come down to mid forearm lead into a sweet fishnet accented top with a interesting black and white spot patterned banding making up the edges. Their is also a second top which does away with the fishnet for when you want something more revealing! This is designed as a 'one piece' that ties into the panties included with the set whether you wear the fishnet or non-fishnet tops. It also has lovely black stockings with a fabric band above the actual top of the stockings themselves, which I thought was a sexy touch! ^_^ My only issue with the outfit is the 'skirt' which looks like not much of anything... Sorry Kaia, but I just didn't like that part... Luckily their is no need with this outfit to wear any part you don't like.


Next up is a new outfit from them called Salmonelle Which is a lovely design, though much to pinkish for my usual taste. I still think it looks good on me, but a bit more red would be awesome! ^_^ Hehe I love the reds and blacks a bit to much I think... Kaia if you ever do this in red base with black let me try it on! Anyways... It's a cute pink bodice style top that links directly to a prim skirt, the bodice has black stripes leading down the front and a nice 'black star burst' effect leads into the pink on the skirt. It also comes with the pink stockings/thigh-high socks that you see in the picture. The black velvet looking jacket tops off the design with it's nice riveted buttons and pink lacing on the arms. It also includes that pink 'neck scrunchie' prim that is very sweet... If not for the jacket, and way short skirt for that time, I'd almost think I was back in the 60's or performing in 'Grease'...


Followed by this male/unisex outfit, which I felt was so sexy with all it's straps and zippers that Louis couldn't have it! ^_^ It's ok Louis I'm sure she'd love it if you bought your own! It only has two parts, a jacket and a set of pants... But you don't need more! The jacket is a sweet leather texture with all sorts of highlight pieces in the way of buckles, straps, and zippers. The pants match, though they have these nice giant ring buckles with zippers... I wish I had a real outfit that looked like this... Oh and before I forget there is also a nice collar built into the jacket that is a different texture, much like real jackets, but sometimes lacking in SL...


Now this next one is the latest from Nocturnal Threads called 'Whisper' and it includes a ton of options... First it's a wonderful dark black... Second it has skull images on the shirt and the backs of the gloves, though it's subtle in design since it's a darker grey color, so it mixes in fairly well with the dark black of the normal texture. As for pieces, it includes a jacket, a matching dress (shirt and skirt), a pair of pants, and thigh high socks/stockings. The jacket is a little black single button shrug/crop top style, perfect for showing off what your wearing under it... The gloves are nice open finger types and the pants look like a nice pleated design, though they are fairly plain. The dress though is sweet and can easily be worn with nothing else from this set. Besides the skull emblem top the skirt is a sort of black and grey plaid pattern that is lovely...


Next up we switch to men's fashions with Louis Modeling for us! He was mildly unwilling even for free clothing, so the pictures look a tad dark... This is the 'Mael Rouge' which is a nice goth look for men. It includes a nicely detailed jacket (and shirt underneath) with elbow patches and lovely red button tabs. This jacket also uses the 'skirt' layer to make coat trails... It was so hard to convince Louis to wear anything with the word 'skirt' attached to it., but in the end I won and he put it on! It also includes red gloves to match the jacket. The outfit is finished off by a pair of black pants.


Finally we have the male version of 'Whsiper'. For men it's a long Tee with the skull emblem much like the women's version and a pair of long pants. It also has a pair of gloves almost identical to the female version... In fact most of what I said about the female version applies here. I just love the female version more, since I can wear it... ;)

Well I think that's it for now... Kaia feel free to give me more stuff any time! Like maybe... Summer Plum (which if I can ever find some spare $L I'm buying anyways), Black Parade, Bad Gretel, Leeloo Noir, Star Studded, DEATHrock grrl, GDC Ven Bowler, Petal, Whimsical.... Uh well just anything you feel like... ^_^

I did find a bunch more of the Pixel Dolls outfit pictures (that I thought I'd lost) and will post those soon as well in a part 3 to my mega update series... So expect those soon...