Saturday, July 7, 2007

Well titles aren't working today, so this gets to be title-less... But I felt like commenting on SL & RL...

SL has been something of a crazy thing lately for me... I left working at Castle Hornet, for reasons I don't really want to go into. I like everyone there I really do, but I needed a break from certain things there. So I took a job at the Perfumed Garden. Which also has a great bunch of gals working at it. Things however did not go as planned, after a week I'd made a whole $300L (in roughly 15 hours of working there), that's $20L an hour... I can almost beat that with crappy camping chairs... So I needed a change.... again... Clothes are expensive in SL as in RL, maybe not as expensive... but when you consider that you don't 'own' anything when you buy clothes in SL... It becomes a very expensive thing... So I've started working at a new club called 'Virgins and Vixens' while spending my stressed out nights in Midian trying to get involved there on my 2 hours or so a night I can spend in SL on a non-weekend. Feel free to stop by my new place of work and hang out for awhile! (Just please remember to tip!)

RL has been even more stressful... I've mentioned her once before, but my girl (and the love of my life) has been going through a ton of stress this week. For starters I should mention she has 2 kids from two previous relationships... The father of her son (the older of her two kids) is suing for increased custody, or more accurately he's being pushed by his wife and his parents to sue for increased custody... Then the father of her second child has decided after pushing her away for years that he has been getting to little attention from her as if they were together... Tip to stupid guy #2, She doesn't want your sorry ass! But she's to nice to say that and she outright forbid me to say it... Cause she knows I would, with my foot up his ass... Added to this is another ex of hers who has shown up begging favors of her and both suggesting he wants her again and that he doesn't depending on day and time. This one is a bigger problem as she still has feelings for him. So he'll make a play on her emotions when he sees her (which is fairly often as his brother just so happens to be my girl's neighbor <_<>_> ), and begs cash for smokes, tattooes, or just plain food from her... Then turn around and sleep with another of my girl's neighbors (who caused a scene the other day sayin' how she was gonna have this guys baby)...

Maybe it's just my strong lesbian tendancies, but... WTF is wrong with some women..? This guys a big giant capitol L loser... He's been to jail for possession of illegal substances, he isn't all that great lookin', and he acts like he's still 10 years old... No wait that was a disservice to 10 year olds... Why in hell would you want to be with him...?

Sigh... But getting back to the point... All this has driven her up a wall and into deciding that she can't take all this stress and so many people that all want her attention and time... And instead of telling them to take a hike, she tells me that she wants to 'take a break from us'... So sadly I'm not the happiest kitten around right now... But I have things to do today, I'll post more later...

3 comments:

London Spengler said...

I shouldn't be saying this, well-meaning advice is usually wrong, and I already have a tendency to be wrong. Anyway, here it goes...

As I can see, she is too weak to break from the manipulative men in her live, and she knows it. You seem to have your head over your shoulders and a strong personality... and that means when she is with you, you remember her her weakness.

I think that is why she is trying to "take a break"; she is hiding by leaving the one who doesn't try to manipulate her emotions.

Now the advice... but remember, rarely any advice is good.

Look for your own weakness... find how you miss her, how it pains you that she cannot relay on you, how it hurts to see her thorn...

Look for all the bits than make you feel vulnerable, and share them with her, without angriness or hurted feelings; only tell her. Maybe your pain will help her to find the strength we all have inside.

And yes, I know it is a way of manipulate her, too; but at least isn't a selfish one.

theshadow said...

In fact that's what I pretty much did... I didn't analyze it when i did it, but instead told her about how much I need her and how she is my motivation to better myself...

Things still aren't back to how they were, but when we are alone she makes me feel like my world is complete. I won't give any more crazy details of my love life unless someone asks, but things aren't what they were and aren't completely over either... We are stuck somewhere in between...

London Spengler said...

I hope everything goes well.

*tries to learn to listen and keep her big mouth shut.*